Still Sick!

I miss having my mommy around to take care of me when I'm sick. I miss having all those food prepared on the table for lunch and supper. I miss her yelling to remind me to take my medicine. I miss her coming into my room to see if I was feeling better of if I needed anything... and the list goes on! Now I have to worry about what to eat when I'm sick.. and plus the medicine!

I pretty much live alone here in waterloo. Since I am not sharing my place with anybody anymore, I've been spending my study time at home instead of at school. Last year when I had roommates, there was no way for me to study at home. It gets kind of lonely and boring after a while. It seems like my life is like a boring cycle. Sleep, wake up, shower, devotion, study, go to school, nap, study, then sleep again! In fact, that is what I do everyday and basically in the same order!

Although my parents don't live far, only 1 hour away, I still pretty much rely on myself for everything. Ever since my dad took this huge decision and basically had a new career that he himself probably have never thought of, my parents have been real busy that they have no time for me anymore. Last year, even though I lived 1 hour away from them, I never had to worry about food, or anything because my mom provided everything. My dad was in Indo, but he managed to text message me everyday to see how I was doing. Now I have to be satisfied with Indomie when I don't have time to cook or buy food!

It's not that I'm complaining about my dad's new job. I'm actually grateful and I'm very proud of him to be able to do that. Imagine me many years later when I'm in my white lab coat, then God offered me this huge thing, it would probably kill me to come up with a decision.

I guess it is also time for me to grow up. I mean, I'm nearly 20 and I still can call myself childish. So, being left alone is probably the best way for me to grow up. On top of that, I know that God is teaching me to rely on Him alone and not on other people. I'm not an independent type of person, and I always like to depend on other people instead of God alone. Here, in my own place, I can do whatever I want. I can sing and worship as loud as I want, I can pray whenever and whatever I do, nobody would know and care about it!

Even though I think that my parents don't really have time for me anymore, but I know they still care about me very much. Once every two or three days, my dad still sends me text messages or emails making sure I am okay. Simple basic questions coming from my parents make me smile, such as "How your day at school?" "Have you eaten yet?" "Would you like a ride home tomorrow?" "Don't forget to pray and lock up all doors," "God bless you abundantly."
Anyway, I just want to point out that I'm thankful that I still have parents that love me very much, support me and accept me just the way I am!