About Life...

Some people say that life is not fair. Some people say that life is a blessing. Why do these two statements contradict with each other?

I spent my day at the Ontario Provincial Court yesterday. My dad was helping one of his congregations and bail her out of jail. Why was she in jail? She is not a bad person, not at all. She's a healthy lady, good wife, good parent, and just basically "a good gal." So, again, why is she in jail then?

You can say that accidents happen. Yes, they do in fact happen a lot without any of our intentions. Anyway.. It was one tired, stressful night for the family and the wife "snapped" and decided to grab a meat cleaver and cut her husband's left lower leg. She just "lost" it, I guess. The second she found out what happened, she was shocked to herself and called 911 right away. So, the police and ambulance came and got her arrested. Now, the husband and the wife are not allowed to live together, so one of them and 1 kid might be living with us from now on.

Is it her fault? Would you think it's her fault? The courts did not care whether it was just an accident or not. In their eyes, she's a criminal. But, is she really a criminal at heart?

Although we are not related at all, I can't help myself to cry and feel what they feel. I think about their 13 year-old daughter and how she feels. I was just at her age not too long ago, and what would I do if I was at her position?

Last night, I understand what blessings I have received from God. I am blessed with two good parents and two awesome brothers. I live in a good, more than decent, home with big-screen TV, a big kitchen, a music room. I have a really big bedroom with nice furnitures. I have a laptop, a really cool guitar, stereo systems, etc. How could I not be thankful enough? How could I be complaining about my life? What do I not have that I should be complaining about?

I couldn't stop thinking and thanking God that night. If I was that little girl, would I complain even more? Would I be mad at God?

I've heard someone said that "wealth pulls you even farther away from God." I think this is true. The more you have, the more you complain about what you don't have. I understand that a lot of things do not happen the way I want them to. But, they're all parts of God's plan for me. So, from now on I want to stop complaining and be thankful about what I have. God has showered me with so many blessings, but I never realized them because I keep on focusing on what I don't have and complain about them.

So, I think life is GREAT and I thank God for this understanding and His never-ending blessings in my life.

Exams and Christmas Madness!!!!!

I need sleep! I need sleep! I need sleep! I need sleep! I need sleep!

:p that's all my blog will say.. hehe..

Anyway, I am finally done with exams. I think I did really well on four of them, except the last one. I was pretty upset with the last one because I didn't think I was prepared enough. You see, the day before my exam, my best friend decided to come over and bugged me. Well, I liked the companion, but the timing was just not right. I didn't really want to kick her out because I didn't think that was nice nor polite. Besides, she was really nice to me. She bought me some study snacks when she came over. She also helped me with the Christmas decorations. Well, I ended up pullin' an all-niter that night and didn't sleep at all for my 9:00 am exam the next day. My dad decided to drive me because I did not sleep and I wasn't supposed to drive on a highway when I had no sleep at all. I think I okay, but not what I expected. I'm still regretting about what happened actually. I felt like, I have the chance, but I blew it all over. I am literally rubbing this over my face as it will not happen again next time. I repeat, will NOT!

Well, I slept for 8 hours in 3 days now. Our church's christmas celebration is today at 5:00 pm. So, right after my exam was done, I came home straight and started working right away. I did not even had time to catch sleep. =( It's crazy. It's madness one might say! :p

I actually wish that the celebration would be pushed back to the 25th. Actually, it'd probably be more appropriate on the 25th anyway. But, they did not want it to interfere with family meetings and all. I still want to do so much for this christmas. Better music, better decorations, better everything and more everything. I was planning to make a bookmark. Although I know computer designing is just not my thing, and I suck I know that. But, if I don't do it, who else would? And I just want to make a difference. I'd like to make everything much better than what we have right now. Afterall, I'm only doing this for God. I just want to do my best, but sometimes I get upset because time just simply won't let me!

Alright then.. less complaining, more work and more sleep! That's what I really should do right now! =) I know I already tried to do my best, and I will let God do the rest! So God, feel free to do ur job tonight! Show 'em YOUR might power! :D

G'nites!

Will You Wait For Me?

Will You Wait For Me

I need to talk with you again why did you go away
All our time together just feels like yesterday
I never thought I’d see a single day without you
The things we take for granted. We can sometimes lose

And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again? Will I see you again?

Cos time will pass me by. Maybe I’ll never learn to smile
But I know I’ll make it through if you wait for me
And all the tears I cry
No matter how I try. They’ll never bring you home to me
Won’t you wait for me in heaven?

Do you remember how it was when we never seemed to care?
The days went by so quickly cos I thought you’d always be there
And it’s hard to let you go though I know that I must try
I feel like I’ve been cheated cos we never said goodbye

Cos I miss you so
And I need to know will you wait for me?

And time will pass me by. Maybe I’ll never learn to smile
But I know I’ll make it through if you wait for me