Crying..

I'm warning you.. don't read this post..

I feel like crying right now.. Bad things happen to good people.. why? Sometimes all you want to do is help.. but you end up in a bad situation..

So many things happen to me today.. I know it's thanksgiving day and all.. I just want to be happy.. and be thankful with everything.. but I guess things happen.. for a reason.. I don't know...

I always blame myself for things that I didn't do.. I blame myself when I see the people I love get hurt.. "I shouldn't have done this.. I shouldn't have gone here.. I should've stayed.. I should've.. I should've..." I blame myself when other ppl get hurt..

My brother yelled at me today to stop taking crap from people. A lot of people hurt me without knowing that they're hurting me.. That is because most of the times I don't say anything.. I just take the "crap" just like what my brother would say. I don't like to argue with people.. unless it's a healthy argument, then I'd argue.. but if it's an argument to find out who's wrong and who's right, I don't bother.. I know that it's wrong.. but I don't like arguing with people.. it'll end up hurting me more.. 'cuz I don't like to blame ppl.. I don't like to see other ppl get hurt..

But I guess ppl like to take advantage of this.. Last time I said it on facebook, "I'm nice, don't abuse it" I actually meant that!

But it's okay.. in everything.. in every condition, I just want to give thanks. Especially on thanksgiving day. So really, I shouldn't be complaining at all. I guess I just needed some place to rant..

Anyway, if you end up down here, I already told you not to read..