So.. I've just finished writing my 20% Quiz. And.. it was.. HARD! Well, the questions were not too bad at all, but I feel like I wasn't satisfied at all with my answers. It seems like I didn't write enough. But, again.. I was the last few people that finished the exam, and I couldn't think of anything else to add. Well, I know for sure I wrote the wrong values for 2 things (I think it was water and Mg2+ concentration at standard free energy change), but I hope it wouldn't alter that much mark since it was only a small part of the question.
I don't know, but I'm realliiii worried right now. I feel like chasing after my prof and ask her to mark it right away, but >
Well, at least I can sleep now. Oh, sleeeeeeepp... I haven't really been getting enough sleep since the beginning of the weekend. Not even 5 hours per nite! It's crazy.
Alright, enough writing.. I gotta finish this quick lunch and head to bed. But, oh no.. I'm not supposed to sleep after I eat cuz that would interfere with my diet. Hmmm.. diet? what diet? LOL.. You know I kept telling people that I wanted to go on a diet, but yea.. I was never successful even at the first few attempts. =P
Well, hope everyone have a good afternoon!
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Monday, January 29, 2007
Everything that happened on the weekend..
So many things happened this past weekend. I guess I was happy, yet upset, disappointed, frustrated, tired, and all sorts of other moods.
I left Waterloo on Friday, right after my Genetics class. I skipped thermodynamics tutorial in the afternoon because I needed to rush to Mississauga so that I can visit my old high school to request a transcript. All went well, I got a copy of my high school transcript right away. Then I went home, straight to my room, took out my biochemistry books and started nerding, all because I have a 20% worth Quiz this Tuesday (tomorrow). Then, I felt a little sleepy, so I took a nap for 1 hour so that I wouldn't be so tired coming to work at 8 pm. In my mind, I thought that I could study more on Saturday night.
So, I went to work that Friday night. Just before we closed, my friend said that, "Have you checked your schedule? You're working 11am-4pm, 8pm-closing tomorrow." I honestly thought she was joking, because we always joke around at work. So I said, "Yea right, Mike told me last week that I'd work 11am-4pm Saturday so he could train me in sandwiches." And she said, "I'm not joking.. go check it right now." So, I did.. and guess what? She was right! I was very frustrated that minute I checked my schedule. To tell you the truth, I have 2 midterms and 2 assignments due this week. I thought I would be able to at least finish studying for 1 of my midterms on the weekend, but I guess I was wrong. I had the urge to talk to my manager, but I felt bad because I just recently broke a sugar container by accident. I felt guilty as charged.
The thing is, my dad was away in Ottawa that day, so he couldn't drive me. I only had 4 hour break, and on a snowy Saturday it could take 1 hour or more to get home by bus. So, I thought to myself that I shouldn't wasting that hour and should just go study nearby. So I went to Denny's to get dinner during my break, and stayed there to study. But, well, I couldn't really study because I was tired and I regretted I didn't go home.
I haven't mentioned that I had an argument about something with my dad on Friday night on the phone. But since I come home late from work, and he had to leave early on Saturday morning, we didn't actually meet again until Sunday morning before church. I don't know why I'm upset with him. I asked him if I could do something, and he disagreed, and I couldn't accept his reasons, or maybe I couldn't accept the whole thing of why he disagreed. I thought about so many factors why I was upset with him, but I don't even know which one is right. I had this mixed feelings inside of me.
So then, yea.. this weekend I brought home my books for nothing because I barely touched them. On Sunday after church, I went to bed right away to catch up with sleep, then had to go to work that Sunday night. See, for me, church isn't just a regular 2-hour thing on Sunday. We go to church 2 hours early to set up and practice (I'm in the music team for those who didn't know). Then, after church we gotta clean up and wait until my parents drop off everybody who didn't own a car, then get an extra late lunch, then home. But I skipped lunch yesterday, so I got home at 2:30ish. See, I left at 9 am Sunday morning, and got back at 2:30 pm. Now you understand why I couldn't study at all last weekend.
So, having only had 4 hours of sleep on Sunday night, my dad drove us (my brother and I, and another friend) back to Waterloo early in the morning. When I entered the apartment, I was devastated to see that all of my plants (that I planted for my plant anatomy course) were all wilted. I was just so stressed out that I could only cry. I don't understand.. so many things happened this weekend. I'm serious I probably cried 10 times in 3 days. I don't think I've ever cried that frequently before.. or maybe I did, I don't know.
Well, I gotta go hit the books now. I just thought I should right to let this all out. And yes, I REALLYYY wish I had a sister.. you know I need that heart-to-heart talk that mostly I can't do with my mom. But it's okay, I gotta learn to be tougher and not cry every time I have problems.
Ciao for now!
I left Waterloo on Friday, right after my Genetics class. I skipped thermodynamics tutorial in the afternoon because I needed to rush to Mississauga so that I can visit my old high school to request a transcript. All went well, I got a copy of my high school transcript right away. Then I went home, straight to my room, took out my biochemistry books and started nerding, all because I have a 20% worth Quiz this Tuesday (tomorrow). Then, I felt a little sleepy, so I took a nap for 1 hour so that I wouldn't be so tired coming to work at 8 pm. In my mind, I thought that I could study more on Saturday night.
So, I went to work that Friday night. Just before we closed, my friend said that, "Have you checked your schedule? You're working 11am-4pm, 8pm-closing tomorrow." I honestly thought she was joking, because we always joke around at work. So I said, "Yea right, Mike told me last week that I'd work 11am-4pm Saturday so he could train me in sandwiches." And she said, "I'm not joking.. go check it right now." So, I did.. and guess what? She was right! I was very frustrated that minute I checked my schedule. To tell you the truth, I have 2 midterms and 2 assignments due this week. I thought I would be able to at least finish studying for 1 of my midterms on the weekend, but I guess I was wrong. I had the urge to talk to my manager, but I felt bad because I just recently broke a sugar container by accident. I felt guilty as charged.
The thing is, my dad was away in Ottawa that day, so he couldn't drive me. I only had 4 hour break, and on a snowy Saturday it could take 1 hour or more to get home by bus. So, I thought to myself that I shouldn't wasting that hour and should just go study nearby. So I went to Denny's to get dinner during my break, and stayed there to study. But, well, I couldn't really study because I was tired and I regretted I didn't go home.
I haven't mentioned that I had an argument about something with my dad on Friday night on the phone. But since I come home late from work, and he had to leave early on Saturday morning, we didn't actually meet again until Sunday morning before church. I don't know why I'm upset with him. I asked him if I could do something, and he disagreed, and I couldn't accept his reasons, or maybe I couldn't accept the whole thing of why he disagreed. I thought about so many factors why I was upset with him, but I don't even know which one is right. I had this mixed feelings inside of me.
So then, yea.. this weekend I brought home my books for nothing because I barely touched them. On Sunday after church, I went to bed right away to catch up with sleep, then had to go to work that Sunday night. See, for me, church isn't just a regular 2-hour thing on Sunday. We go to church 2 hours early to set up and practice (I'm in the music team for those who didn't know). Then, after church we gotta clean up and wait until my parents drop off everybody who didn't own a car, then get an extra late lunch, then home. But I skipped lunch yesterday, so I got home at 2:30ish. See, I left at 9 am Sunday morning, and got back at 2:30 pm. Now you understand why I couldn't study at all last weekend.
So, having only had 4 hours of sleep on Sunday night, my dad drove us (my brother and I, and another friend) back to Waterloo early in the morning. When I entered the apartment, I was devastated to see that all of my plants (that I planted for my plant anatomy course) were all wilted. I was just so stressed out that I could only cry. I don't understand.. so many things happened this weekend. I'm serious I probably cried 10 times in 3 days. I don't think I've ever cried that frequently before.. or maybe I did, I don't know.
Well, I gotta go hit the books now. I just thought I should right to let this all out. And yes, I REALLYYY wish I had a sister.. you know I need that heart-to-heart talk that mostly I can't do with my mom. But it's okay, I gotta learn to be tougher and not cry every time I have problems.
Ciao for now!
Friday, January 26, 2007
I can do all things...
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" - Philippians 4:13
Have you ever felt that you're just hopeless, that there's no way you could ever reach to what you really want?
That's how I feel right now. But I know that God is by my side, and He will get me through it. He will help me achieve my dreams.. and I believe that He can make the impossible, possible! Of course, as long as you trust in Him and you do your part, God will do the rest. Amen!
Have you ever felt that you're just hopeless, that there's no way you could ever reach to what you really want?
That's how I feel right now. But I know that God is by my side, and He will get me through it. He will help me achieve my dreams.. and I believe that He can make the impossible, possible! Of course, as long as you trust in Him and you do your part, God will do the rest. Amen!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Si Ira masak so'un.. =p
Hauahahaha.. ada cerita lucu nih.. I'm actually still cekikikan right now... here goes..
Hari ini tuh harusnya gua masak bakut for lunch/dinner today and lunch tomorrow. Tapi gua ngeliat ada sisa chicken broth di kulkas... trus jd takutnya kalo masak bakut ntar kebanyakan trus gak abis.. besok kan gua kudu pulang kerumah.. so yah.. akhirnya jd masak bakso kuah.. gampang kan tinggal cemplung2.. ngilernya sih bakso abang2 kayak di Jakarta gitu.. sayangnya kagak punya micinnn.. trus lg gak ada pangsit gorengg... si nyokap pas gua bilang minta dibeliin pangsit, tp dia salah.. malah dibawain-nya kuo-tieh.. kumaha atuh? =p
Lanjut.. lanjut.. gua makan bakso-nya pake mie telor gitu.. trus si ira gua tawarin mie dia kagak mau.. katanya mau-nya pake so'un.. trus ya udah.. pas dia ngerebus so'un, dia rebus kayak 2 buntelan gitu.. trus dia pikir.. "udah ah.. ntar kebanyakan.." eh gak taunya pas tuh so'un udah mateng.. jdnya ternyata dikit banget.. I gotta say that overall jdnya paling cuman cukup buat 2 suap! HAUAHAHAHAHAHAHA... langsung dah ngakak dua2an.. =p
Ya udah.. sekian dulu utk skrg.. kudu blajar nii..
daggghhhh
Hari ini tuh harusnya gua masak bakut for lunch/dinner today and lunch tomorrow. Tapi gua ngeliat ada sisa chicken broth di kulkas... trus jd takutnya kalo masak bakut ntar kebanyakan trus gak abis.. besok kan gua kudu pulang kerumah.. so yah.. akhirnya jd masak bakso kuah.. gampang kan tinggal cemplung2.. ngilernya sih bakso abang2 kayak di Jakarta gitu.. sayangnya kagak punya micinnn.. trus lg gak ada pangsit gorengg... si nyokap pas gua bilang minta dibeliin pangsit, tp dia salah.. malah dibawain-nya kuo-tieh.. kumaha atuh? =p
Lanjut.. lanjut.. gua makan bakso-nya pake mie telor gitu.. trus si ira gua tawarin mie dia kagak mau.. katanya mau-nya pake so'un.. trus ya udah.. pas dia ngerebus so'un, dia rebus kayak 2 buntelan gitu.. trus dia pikir.. "udah ah.. ntar kebanyakan.." eh gak taunya pas tuh so'un udah mateng.. jdnya ternyata dikit banget.. I gotta say that overall jdnya paling cuman cukup buat 2 suap! HAUAHAHAHAHAHAHA... langsung dah ngakak dua2an.. =p
Ya udah.. sekian dulu utk skrg.. kudu blajar nii..
daggghhhh
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
I'm tired..
Goodness gracious... I feel so tired this week. Actually, I find that ever since I started to work part-time, I feel so much more tired during the week, and I'm falling behind in my courses. The plan was to study hard-core during the week, then rest and work on the weekends. But, I guess it never happened this way. I don't study as much hard-core as I planned to during the week, and then I work on the weekends but cannot get enough rest. In fact, I lack sleep during the weekends due to my night shifts at work and early morning Sunday service, and an 8:30 class on Monday. *sigh*
Just FYI, usually on Saturdays and Sundays I'd be at the library nerding with my books trying to catch up on things, or at least finish all assignments that are due the following week. But since now I work, I can't do that anymore. I tend to take long naps during the day on Saturday and Sunday because I stay up late to work, which is really such a waste of time having abnormal sleeping hours like that.
I also find that, having a new job that I happen to love, I then have a new obsession. My focus is now divided between school and work. I actually look forward to going to work on the weekends. Usually, before I started working, I'd look forward to go to the library so that I can catch up with things and won't feel guilty about falling behind in school. But now, things are different.
But, I can't let my grades slip.. I can't. I'm just gonna have to kill myself at the end of this term if I let that happen. So, I've been waking up at 6 am to study before my class starts at 8:30 am. So, I go to bed at midnight, and up by 6 am. The thing is, I don't usually fall asleep right away. Sometimes it takes me 30 mins to 1 hr to actually sleep, and on the odd days it can take me hours, I know. So, on average, I probably only sleep 5.5 hrs/night on the weekdays now, and even LESS on the weekends. What am I going to do if this continues?? And I know it will be like this for the rest of the term.. unless I quit my job. =(
Anyway, let's change the topic. After my class at UW this morning, I walked to the bus stop to wait for my bus. There was 1 Asian guy standing there waiting for the bus. It was really cold, so I entered the booth to avoid the wind. Surprisingly, the Asian guy smiled at me. So, I thought to myself, "hmmm.. do I know this guy? Why is he smiling at me?" So I kind of smile back, but I did not really pay any attention as I was also listening to my iPod. But then, the guy kept looking at me as if we knew each other. So, to be polite, I took off one of my earphones and I was gonna ask him, "Do I know you?" But before I had the chance to ask, he said to me, "I met you yesterday on bus #8." I laughed because I was certain he caught the wrong person because I did not even take the bus yesterday. So, I told him so, and he tried to assure me that he really saw me and said, "Oh, maybe I saw you on Monday then. But I really SAW you." LOL, he really did emphasize the word "saw". So, I'm like.. okay... so what gitu loh? I just said to him, "yes.. must be on Monday." He then asked me if I was Chinese, if I speak any Chinese, which part of China I was from, and so on. So, I answered his questions briefly. He then asked if he could have my MSN. And, being polite or perhaps just being too nice, I didn't have the heart to say no or to give him an excuse for not giving my MSN. So, I said that if he had any paper or pen on him, I'd give him my MSN. At first, he only took out a pen. I was scared that he was gonna ask me to write it on his hand. *eeeeeeeekkkkk* Luckily, he also took out a small piece of paper. *phew*.
Alright, that is it for today. I'm gonna go back to reading Genetics.
Later days!
ps. I REALLY WANT TO GO TO WINTERLICIOUS.. ANYONE? =( don't think I have the time though..
Just FYI, usually on Saturdays and Sundays I'd be at the library nerding with my books trying to catch up on things, or at least finish all assignments that are due the following week. But since now I work, I can't do that anymore. I tend to take long naps during the day on Saturday and Sunday because I stay up late to work, which is really such a waste of time having abnormal sleeping hours like that.
I also find that, having a new job that I happen to love, I then have a new obsession. My focus is now divided between school and work. I actually look forward to going to work on the weekends. Usually, before I started working, I'd look forward to go to the library so that I can catch up with things and won't feel guilty about falling behind in school. But now, things are different.
But, I can't let my grades slip.. I can't. I'm just gonna have to kill myself at the end of this term if I let that happen. So, I've been waking up at 6 am to study before my class starts at 8:30 am. So, I go to bed at midnight, and up by 6 am. The thing is, I don't usually fall asleep right away. Sometimes it takes me 30 mins to 1 hr to actually sleep, and on the odd days it can take me hours, I know. So, on average, I probably only sleep 5.5 hrs/night on the weekdays now, and even LESS on the weekends. What am I going to do if this continues?? And I know it will be like this for the rest of the term.. unless I quit my job. =(
Anyway, let's change the topic. After my class at UW this morning, I walked to the bus stop to wait for my bus. There was 1 Asian guy standing there waiting for the bus. It was really cold, so I entered the booth to avoid the wind. Surprisingly, the Asian guy smiled at me. So, I thought to myself, "hmmm.. do I know this guy? Why is he smiling at me?" So I kind of smile back, but I did not really pay any attention as I was also listening to my iPod. But then, the guy kept looking at me as if we knew each other. So, to be polite, I took off one of my earphones and I was gonna ask him, "Do I know you?" But before I had the chance to ask, he said to me, "I met you yesterday on bus #8." I laughed because I was certain he caught the wrong person because I did not even take the bus yesterday. So, I told him so, and he tried to assure me that he really saw me and said, "Oh, maybe I saw you on Monday then. But I really SAW you." LOL, he really did emphasize the word "saw". So, I'm like.. okay... so what gitu loh? I just said to him, "yes.. must be on Monday." He then asked me if I was Chinese, if I speak any Chinese, which part of China I was from, and so on. So, I answered his questions briefly. He then asked if he could have my MSN. And, being polite or perhaps just being too nice, I didn't have the heart to say no or to give him an excuse for not giving my MSN. So, I said that if he had any paper or pen on him, I'd give him my MSN. At first, he only took out a pen. I was scared that he was gonna ask me to write it on his hand. *eeeeeeeekkkkk* Luckily, he also took out a small piece of paper. *phew*.
Alright, that is it for today. I'm gonna go back to reading Genetics.
Later days!
ps. I REALLY WANT TO GO TO WINTERLICIOUS.. ANYONE? =( don't think I have the time though..
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Biochem quiz is re-scheduled!!! =D
I went to my 8:30 class this morning only to find out that the class was cancelled. At first, I was a little shocked because we were supposed have a 20% worth Quiz this Thursday. A bunch of other kids started to wonder if the prof would re-schedule the exam. About an hour later, people started to say that the prof replied to one of the students' email and said that the Quiz is still on. Everyone was very upset. I thought that, if she could reply to that student, then she could've posted an announcement on the course website, but she didn't. So, I checked back 2 hours later, and YES!! the Quiz is postponed... =)
I'm mainly happy because I pretty much have 2 assignments due tomorrow that I pretty much just got started. They're small assignments, but still.. =p
Well, it doesn't mean that I can sit around and do nothing now. After I finished those 2 assignments, I'm gonna start studying because now I have 2 exams next week and an 2 assignments due.
Alright, this is it for now! Ciao!
Hmmm.. actually ada tambahan niii.. Hari ini seru deghh di tmpt kos gue. Ada yg masak beef stew (gw sndiri), bubur kacang ijo.. trus satu lagi roommate gua masak ground beef pake bbq sauce + bumbu2 lainnya, trus dipanggang gitu loh... wangi-nya asiiiikkk, udah kayak sate bakar... trus udah gitu pas lagi manggang, nga tau knp tuh oven.. namanya jg tempat kos laa, oven-nya kan nge-rent berikut dgn appliances2 dan furniture2 lainnya.. HAUAHAhahaha.HA.. trus kok berasap banyak bgt... tuh fire alarm udah 10 kali bunyi kali.. trus bunyi-nya tuh tiap 2 menit gitu.. HAUAHAHAHA.. trus semua jendela kamar jg udah dibuka.. trus, kan kamar gua itu the only room yg ada balcony-nya.. jd jendela-nya segede pintu balcony gitu loh.. eh pas gua buka.. alarmnya pas mo bunyi.. tp langsung mati lagi.. . saking dinginnya kali angin dr luar ^^ it's soo funny.. tp overall, seru jg loh rame2 masak begitu.. ^^ ya udah segitu deh.. =p
I'm mainly happy because I pretty much have 2 assignments due tomorrow that I pretty much just got started. They're small assignments, but still.. =p
Well, it doesn't mean that I can sit around and do nothing now. After I finished those 2 assignments, I'm gonna start studying because now I have 2 exams next week and an 2 assignments due.
Alright, this is it for now! Ciao!
Hmmm.. actually ada tambahan niii.. Hari ini seru deghh di tmpt kos gue. Ada yg masak beef stew (gw sndiri), bubur kacang ijo.. trus satu lagi roommate gua masak ground beef pake bbq sauce + bumbu2 lainnya, trus dipanggang gitu loh... wangi-nya asiiiikkk, udah kayak sate bakar... trus udah gitu pas lagi manggang, nga tau knp tuh oven.. namanya jg tempat kos laa, oven-nya kan nge-rent berikut dgn appliances2 dan furniture2 lainnya.. HAUAHAhahaha.HA.. trus kok berasap banyak bgt... tuh fire alarm udah 10 kali bunyi kali.. trus bunyi-nya tuh tiap 2 menit gitu.. HAUAHAHAHA.. trus semua jendela kamar jg udah dibuka.. trus, kan kamar gua itu the only room yg ada balcony-nya.. jd jendela-nya segede pintu balcony gitu loh.. eh pas gua buka.. alarmnya pas mo bunyi.. tp langsung mati lagi.. . saking dinginnya kali angin dr luar ^^ it's soo funny.. tp overall, seru jg loh rame2 masak begitu.. ^^ ya udah segitu deh.. =p
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Happy! ^^
It's 2:54 am, and I just got back from work about 15 minutes ago. I gotta say I love my new job. It's really fun, you know, making all those fancy drinks, decorating plates with variety of sauces... and soon, they will train me in sandwiches and pizza. They actually make their sandwiches and pizza from scratch, and I gotta say that those are not regular sandwiches. They taste heavenly! I get to learn to make them. They also make pizza from scratch, so I get to make them too! I'm so happy! ^-^ Soon after that, maybe if I work longer, they'll train me in soup too. Actually, the chef will be training me! =p It'd be kinda cool if I get to be the chef assistant or something like that! Ooooohh, sooo excited!
Aside from that, my dad doesn't really like it when he heard how much I enjoy this job. He wants me to focus on getting a job in the health or science area, because I'll be graduating soon. Well, yes of course I will get another job, but I'm planning to keep this job. I can keep it as a part time and get another full time job! =) *I hope*
And today, I finally went to the Chinese store with my mom and get those meats I needed. I never had time on the weekends to go there since I work now, and getting meats at the regular grocery stores are just so much more expensive. Besides, the Chinese store has a much more complete collection on types of meats, etc. So, yea! It's been so long that I told my brother I was gonna make "bakut". I don't know what you'd call that in English, but bakut is one of my favourite soup. It's also simple to make, which makes me happy! Haha =p So yea, today I finally bought pork ribs to make bakut!!!! I also bought beef shanks (sengkel) to make beef stew that I've been wanting to make, but have been delayed since stewing beef at Price Chopper can cost me $10/kg! So yea, my brother and I are having a feast this week! Too bad I have a midterm and ALL assignments due, hopefully I'll be able to cook all that.
Anyway, I'm only writing this blog this late because I cannot go to sleep right away when I just got back from work. I need to let my body cool down to the rest level, then go to 'pulau kapuk'. =p
Alright, I think I'm gonna go now. Don't forget to go to church tomorrow people. And this especially for u, my best friend.. u know who u are! You better go! =p
Selamat malam dunia!
Aside from that, my dad doesn't really like it when he heard how much I enjoy this job. He wants me to focus on getting a job in the health or science area, because I'll be graduating soon. Well, yes of course I will get another job, but I'm planning to keep this job. I can keep it as a part time and get another full time job! =) *I hope*
And today, I finally went to the Chinese store with my mom and get those meats I needed. I never had time on the weekends to go there since I work now, and getting meats at the regular grocery stores are just so much more expensive. Besides, the Chinese store has a much more complete collection on types of meats, etc. So, yea! It's been so long that I told my brother I was gonna make "bakut". I don't know what you'd call that in English, but bakut is one of my favourite soup. It's also simple to make, which makes me happy! Haha =p So yea, today I finally bought pork ribs to make bakut!!!! I also bought beef shanks (sengkel) to make beef stew that I've been wanting to make, but have been delayed since stewing beef at Price Chopper can cost me $10/kg! So yea, my brother and I are having a feast this week! Too bad I have a midterm and ALL assignments due, hopefully I'll be able to cook all that.
Anyway, I'm only writing this blog this late because I cannot go to sleep right away when I just got back from work. I need to let my body cool down to the rest level, then go to 'pulau kapuk'. =p
Alright, I think I'm gonna go now. Don't forget to go to church tomorrow people. And this especially for u, my best friend.. u know who u are! You better go! =p
Selamat malam dunia!
Friday, January 19, 2007
A message for my friend...
I don't know if you read my blog. I think I gave you a link to this blog before, but I don't think you ever come here. Not that I expect you to visit, but I just have a little message for you.
I know that you're probably going through a very tough time right now. I can see that you're in a dilemma, confused of what to do. You want to follow what your heart wants, what your heart needs.. but at the same time, you're afraid of what might happen, the consequences.
Often you come to me for comfort. You'd call me whenever you feel like crying or when you feel like being lost. However, you never find the answers or advices that you want from me. When you come to me to talk about things, I seem to never have the perfect answer that you're looking for.
You know that I've never been in the same situation as you before. I have no certain experience that can back up what I'm gonna say to you. But, all I know is that.. whenever I have problems and I don't know what to do or where to go, I go and find God. I talk to God, you know, like a real conversation. I pray to God, and tell Him my problems... and really I can feel that I find comfort when I do this. So, all those times when you call me or when you come to my room crying, I really want to tell you that you should pray. I have no other answers because I've done this all my life. I have no past experience where God was not involved in my problems, because I always come to Him the second those problems come. This is also what my parents taught me since I was little. So, really.. I have no other answer for you.. but pray..
I was listening to this song last night, and the lyrics have put this burden in my heart to tell you. But, I don't know how to tell you. You seem to have a different belief about God. You seem to have your own belief about things. You take many different things, here and there, and you just take what makes sense to you. I hope that someday (soon), I can tell you this good news.
Anyway, below is the lyric to the song.
One Thing I Know
by Selah
Something in your eyes I see
reminds me of what used to be
when I was uncertain of the truth.
Sleepless nights that turn to days;
alone inside an endless maze;
counting on someone to see me through.
If there's one thing I know,
you are never left alone
'cause you can always call on Jesus's name.
If there's one thing I pray,
it's Jesus helps you find a way
to make a change and listen to your heart.
God will take away your pain
if you choose to let it go.
If there's one thing I know.
How can I convince your heart?
His light can find you in the dark
and only He can make your blind eye see.
For if we speak of lost things found,
of lives that have been turned around;
Then tell me who knows better, child, than me?
I would never stake my life on any lesser things
than the cross of Christ where He gave His life to end my suffering.
I know that you're probably going through a very tough time right now. I can see that you're in a dilemma, confused of what to do. You want to follow what your heart wants, what your heart needs.. but at the same time, you're afraid of what might happen, the consequences.
Often you come to me for comfort. You'd call me whenever you feel like crying or when you feel like being lost. However, you never find the answers or advices that you want from me. When you come to me to talk about things, I seem to never have the perfect answer that you're looking for.
You know that I've never been in the same situation as you before. I have no certain experience that can back up what I'm gonna say to you. But, all I know is that.. whenever I have problems and I don't know what to do or where to go, I go and find God. I talk to God, you know, like a real conversation. I pray to God, and tell Him my problems... and really I can feel that I find comfort when I do this. So, all those times when you call me or when you come to my room crying, I really want to tell you that you should pray. I have no other answers because I've done this all my life. I have no past experience where God was not involved in my problems, because I always come to Him the second those problems come. This is also what my parents taught me since I was little. So, really.. I have no other answer for you.. but pray..
I was listening to this song last night, and the lyrics have put this burden in my heart to tell you. But, I don't know how to tell you. You seem to have a different belief about God. You seem to have your own belief about things. You take many different things, here and there, and you just take what makes sense to you. I hope that someday (soon), I can tell you this good news.
Anyway, below is the lyric to the song.
One Thing I Know
by Selah
Something in your eyes I see
reminds me of what used to be
when I was uncertain of the truth.
Sleepless nights that turn to days;
alone inside an endless maze;
counting on someone to see me through.
If there's one thing I know,
you are never left alone
'cause you can always call on Jesus's name.
If there's one thing I pray,
it's Jesus helps you find a way
to make a change and listen to your heart.
God will take away your pain
if you choose to let it go.
If there's one thing I know.
How can I convince your heart?
His light can find you in the dark
and only He can make your blind eye see.
For if we speak of lost things found,
of lives that have been turned around;
Then tell me who knows better, child, than me?
I would never stake my life on any lesser things
than the cross of Christ where He gave His life to end my suffering.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
OMG... another one...
Gua tuh orangnya emang mungkin rada kebawelan kali yaaa... But really, I can get comfortable with people really easily. Apakah itu yang namanya 'naive' or 'polos'? Or am I just simply dumb? If I really think about it, I think I trust other people too easily. Friends that I just met, I just assume that they're nice people and start talking and talking, chatting and chatting away. Ato emang gua terlalu cerewet! o.O"
So let's get to the story. Remember that last month I just got a new job at Demetre. Okay.. so ceritanya ada satu cowo, kerjanya bareng si Putri, naksir ma gua. Trus kan yah gua mah biasa2 aja ma dia. Trus dia itu kalo gua dateng tapi kagak say hi ke dia, dia tuh bete gitu loh. Until, I realized that he's only 19 years old. Yah gak compatible banget laa ma gua, masa gua 2 taon lebih tua gitu loh. So, jadi kayaknya abis gitu dia nyadar kalo gua kagak mao, so he backed off.
Trus, ada 1 cowo lagi. Dia ini udah punya pacar, dan gua kenal pacarnya karena sama2 kerja di Demetre. Trus, after I work there for 2 weeks, si cewe-nya tuh dapet kerjaan lagi jadi dia quit. Trus, baru minggu kemaren ini si cowo ini juga quit, krn dia jg dapet kerjaan yg lebih baik gitu loh. Trus kan kita pada tuker2an msn gitu. Actually, dia yang add gua di msn karena gua biasanya emang gak gitu care about msn, KECUALI gua naksir ma orangnya.. HAHAHA.. make sense donggg...
Nah trus nih, kita lumayan sering laa ngobrol di msn gitu. We can talk about many things, from school, work, boys/girls, etc. Trus dia mulai2 bilang ke gua kalo menurut dia, gua itu orangnya cute, a sweet girl, have a charming smile, endearing girl, a hot lil' body, etc. Tadinya gua gak ngerasa kalo nih orang ada maksud apa2 gitu. Wong gua orang-nya kepolosan kali yaa, gak tau deh. Lagian gua pikir dia udah punya pacar, dan gua kenal lagi!!!!
Lalu, kemaren ini kita ada ngobrol lagii. Trus kan pas ngobrol itu gua baru pulang pergi berenang. Trus akhirnya kita ada conversation about working out, etc dan gua bilang yah emang gua suka work out regularly, biasanya aerobics ato swimming gitu. Akhir2nya tuh jd ngomongin ttg gua trying to lose weight. Trus yah dia bilang kalo menurut dia gua itu kagak gendut ama sekali, blah blah.. Trus kan karena udah malem, jd gua bilang kalo gua dah mo tidur. Nah sebelon gua pergi offline itu dia comment lagi, "Gua tetap berpikir kalo eloe itu gak gendut, kaya yg dah gua bilang... quite hot even.. eloe membuat menyesal kalo gua dah quit dr tempat kerja itu.. semoga kita bisa ketemu lagi SOON!" Nah looo! (btw, itu quote-nya gua translate ke indo, sapa tau dia baca gitu...) Gua langsung mikir yah aneh2 laaa... Tell me if he isn't flirting with me! Menurut gua sih itu udah flirting, considering the fact that kita itu cuman co-worker that lately (abt 1 week) have been chatting.
Trus jd gua musti gmn dong? Gua sih kagak tertarik bgt deee ma orangnya. Bukan tipe gua, lagian suka ngomong kotor. Tapi memang orangnya tuh sopan abissss. Tapi mana tahan ngomong kotornya!
Yah anyway, post ini jd di bhs. Indo gitu. Abis gua takut dia baca sih. Orang sini tuh jago kayak stalk gitu loh, tiba2 bisaaja gitu ketemu website org.
Ya udah deh, segini dulu. I have to go cook nih ntar ade gua kagak ada makanan. Hari ini mau bikin fuyunghai-nya a la Ci Vania! =) *makasih lo resepnya ^^*
Later days!
So let's get to the story. Remember that last month I just got a new job at Demetre. Okay.. so ceritanya ada satu cowo, kerjanya bareng si Putri, naksir ma gua. Trus kan yah gua mah biasa2 aja ma dia. Trus dia itu kalo gua dateng tapi kagak say hi ke dia, dia tuh bete gitu loh. Until, I realized that he's only 19 years old. Yah gak compatible banget laa ma gua, masa gua 2 taon lebih tua gitu loh. So, jadi kayaknya abis gitu dia nyadar kalo gua kagak mao, so he backed off.
Trus, ada 1 cowo lagi. Dia ini udah punya pacar, dan gua kenal pacarnya karena sama2 kerja di Demetre. Trus, after I work there for 2 weeks, si cewe-nya tuh dapet kerjaan lagi jadi dia quit. Trus, baru minggu kemaren ini si cowo ini juga quit, krn dia jg dapet kerjaan yg lebih baik gitu loh. Trus kan kita pada tuker2an msn gitu. Actually, dia yang add gua di msn karena gua biasanya emang gak gitu care about msn, KECUALI gua naksir ma orangnya.. HAHAHA.. make sense donggg...
Nah trus nih, kita lumayan sering laa ngobrol di msn gitu. We can talk about many things, from school, work, boys/girls, etc. Trus dia mulai2 bilang ke gua kalo menurut dia, gua itu orangnya cute, a sweet girl, have a charming smile, endearing girl, a hot lil' body, etc. Tadinya gua gak ngerasa kalo nih orang ada maksud apa2 gitu. Wong gua orang-nya kepolosan kali yaa, gak tau deh. Lagian gua pikir dia udah punya pacar, dan gua kenal lagi!!!!
Lalu, kemaren ini kita ada ngobrol lagii. Trus kan pas ngobrol itu gua baru pulang pergi berenang. Trus akhirnya kita ada conversation about working out, etc dan gua bilang yah emang gua suka work out regularly, biasanya aerobics ato swimming gitu. Akhir2nya tuh jd ngomongin ttg gua trying to lose weight. Trus yah dia bilang kalo menurut dia gua itu kagak gendut ama sekali, blah blah.. Trus kan karena udah malem, jd gua bilang kalo gua dah mo tidur. Nah sebelon gua pergi offline itu dia comment lagi, "Gua tetap berpikir kalo eloe itu gak gendut, kaya yg dah gua bilang... quite hot even.. eloe membuat menyesal kalo gua dah quit dr tempat kerja itu.. semoga kita bisa ketemu lagi SOON!" Nah looo! (btw, itu quote-nya gua translate ke indo, sapa tau dia baca gitu...) Gua langsung mikir yah aneh2 laaa... Tell me if he isn't flirting with me! Menurut gua sih itu udah flirting, considering the fact that kita itu cuman co-worker that lately (abt 1 week) have been chatting.
Trus jd gua musti gmn dong? Gua sih kagak tertarik bgt deee ma orangnya. Bukan tipe gua, lagian suka ngomong kotor. Tapi memang orangnya tuh sopan abissss. Tapi mana tahan ngomong kotornya!
Yah anyway, post ini jd di bhs. Indo gitu. Abis gua takut dia baca sih. Orang sini tuh jago kayak stalk gitu loh, tiba2 bisaaja gitu ketemu website org.
Ya udah deh, segini dulu. I have to go cook nih ntar ade gua kagak ada makanan. Hari ini mau bikin fuyunghai-nya a la Ci Vania! =) *makasih lo resepnya ^^*
Later days!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Hmmm.. today...
Nothing much really happened today. Wednesdays are my longest day of the week. I had classes since morning until late afternoon. I then continued to read my plants textbook in the quiet study room because I'm falling behind in the course. It's a distance education course. OMG, it's so boring. I hate it, because we actually have no lectures, meaning I have to learn the stuff on my own. Arrgghhh...
Hmm.. I also went swimming today! ^^ The water was so great. I got the chance to watch a swim instructor teaching a little kid, and I got a few pointers for myself. I quit swimming lesson since I was still back in Indo. I wish I had continued it here though, but I guess it was too expensive anyway. But, I still love swimming no matter what! =)
Alright, I really don't know what else to say. I'm gonna go to sleep because I'm very tired.
Later days!
Hmm.. I also went swimming today! ^^ The water was so great. I got the chance to watch a swim instructor teaching a little kid, and I got a few pointers for myself. I quit swimming lesson since I was still back in Indo. I wish I had continued it here though, but I guess it was too expensive anyway. But, I still love swimming no matter what! =)
Alright, I really don't know what else to say. I'm gonna go to sleep because I'm very tired.
Later days!
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Some random thoughts...
I haven't blogged in a while. Why? I don't know why.. =p I guess I've just been lazy.
Love is patient and kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.
Love does not demand its own way.
Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged.
It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful,
and endures through every circumstance.
-1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (New Living Translation)
So, what is love? I don't think I've ever loved anybody more than I loved God, my parents, my two brothers, my best friends, and any other friends I have. The love that I express to these people closely resembles the definition of "love" in 1 Corinthinas 13. But what about loving 'the significant other'? Is it the same love? If it is, then why is it so complicated? Why is that when we followed our hearts, we ended up regretting or getting hurt in the end? Why? I thought love was.. everything.
What is loneliness? Why do we often feel lonely? Is it because we are home alone? Is it because we have no friends or no one to talk to? Or is it because we THINK we have no friends or nobody to talk to?
I have to admit that I feel lonely at times. Sometimes I envy those girls that are 'in a relationship' because at times I think that they have everything. They have someone to talk to, to listen to, to play with, to go out with. But, the thing is.. the more I think that I'm lonely, the more I FEEL that I'm lonely. In fact, I know very well that I am NOT lonely. As I've mentioned above, I have two lovely parents, two lovely brothers, two best friends, an older brother to look up to, a kazillion of friends... and not forgetting to mention GOD. So, I am not lonely. When I'm in my room alone thinking that I'm lonely, in fact I am not. I just think I am. I sink myself really deep in that thought that my heart finally believe that I am lonely.
Money can't buy everything. I'm sure many of you are well aware of that. Money can buy lots of things that everybody wish they have. You think that if you have a lot of money and all those things that you want to buy, you have conquered the world. You'll be the happiest king and queen in the whole wide world. But no! Money can't buy friends (maybe yes, but not true friends), money can't buy happiness, money can't buy peace, and there are many other things that money can't buy.
Sometimes people plan way beyond their heads and think that "I feel like crap. I feel so poor living in this very small and economy-sized room and crappy-looking apartment. But imagine if I have a house. I get to decorate it the way I want, I get to make my own garden, etc etc." But think about it, once you get the house you will think differently. Yes, you will be happy. You probably won't feel like crap for the first few weeks. But what happens after? You'll feel like crap again because you're living alone in a big house! You'll get lonely and depressed. On top of that, there might be problems after problems coming at you. For example, since now you are an owner, you are responsible for fixing things on your expense. Then, you'll start complaining again.
So, in conclusion, you will never be satisfied with anything. Even if you think that you'll be satisfied because of one thing, that satisfication usually don't last very long.
Hmm, what else are in my mind at this moment? I don't know. I told you in the beginning that this entry is going to be very random. Well, thanks for reading though. Although, don't really think about what I write today, because I'm just rambling. I'm not exactly bored, but I just have so much things in mind that I think I need to write, hehe. Thanks for reading anyways.
Love is patient and kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.
Love does not demand its own way.
Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged.
It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful,
and endures through every circumstance.
-1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (New Living Translation)
So, what is love? I don't think I've ever loved anybody more than I loved God, my parents, my two brothers, my best friends, and any other friends I have. The love that I express to these people closely resembles the definition of "love" in 1 Corinthinas 13. But what about loving 'the significant other'? Is it the same love? If it is, then why is it so complicated? Why is that when we followed our hearts, we ended up regretting or getting hurt in the end? Why? I thought love was.. everything.
What is loneliness? Why do we often feel lonely? Is it because we are home alone? Is it because we have no friends or no one to talk to? Or is it because we THINK we have no friends or nobody to talk to?
I have to admit that I feel lonely at times. Sometimes I envy those girls that are 'in a relationship' because at times I think that they have everything. They have someone to talk to, to listen to, to play with, to go out with. But, the thing is.. the more I think that I'm lonely, the more I FEEL that I'm lonely. In fact, I know very well that I am NOT lonely. As I've mentioned above, I have two lovely parents, two lovely brothers, two best friends, an older brother to look up to, a kazillion of friends... and not forgetting to mention GOD. So, I am not lonely. When I'm in my room alone thinking that I'm lonely, in fact I am not. I just think I am. I sink myself really deep in that thought that my heart finally believe that I am lonely.
Money can't buy everything. I'm sure many of you are well aware of that. Money can buy lots of things that everybody wish they have. You think that if you have a lot of money and all those things that you want to buy, you have conquered the world. You'll be the happiest king and queen in the whole wide world. But no! Money can't buy friends (maybe yes, but not true friends), money can't buy happiness, money can't buy peace, and there are many other things that money can't buy.
Sometimes people plan way beyond their heads and think that "I feel like crap. I feel so poor living in this very small and economy-sized room and crappy-looking apartment. But imagine if I have a house. I get to decorate it the way I want, I get to make my own garden, etc etc." But think about it, once you get the house you will think differently. Yes, you will be happy. You probably won't feel like crap for the first few weeks. But what happens after? You'll feel like crap again because you're living alone in a big house! You'll get lonely and depressed. On top of that, there might be problems after problems coming at you. For example, since now you are an owner, you are responsible for fixing things on your expense. Then, you'll start complaining again.
So, in conclusion, you will never be satisfied with anything. Even if you think that you'll be satisfied because of one thing, that satisfication usually don't last very long.
Hmm, what else are in my mind at this moment? I don't know. I told you in the beginning that this entry is going to be very random. Well, thanks for reading though. Although, don't really think about what I write today, because I'm just rambling. I'm not exactly bored, but I just have so much things in mind that I think I need to write, hehe. Thanks for reading anyways.
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