Some random thoughts...

I haven't blogged in a while. Why? I don't know why.. =p I guess I've just been lazy.

Love is patient and kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.
Love does not demand its own way.
Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged.
It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful,
and endures through every circumstance.
-1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (New Living Translation)

So, what is love? I don't think I've ever loved anybody more than I loved God, my parents, my two brothers, my best friends, and any other friends I have. The love that I express to these people closely resembles the definition of "love" in 1 Corinthinas 13. But what about loving 'the significant other'? Is it the same love? If it is, then why is it so complicated? Why is that when we followed our hearts, we ended up regretting or getting hurt in the end? Why? I thought love was.. everything.

What is loneliness? Why do we often feel lonely? Is it because we are home alone? Is it because we have no friends or no one to talk to? Or is it because we THINK we have no friends or nobody to talk to?

I have to admit that I feel lonely at times. Sometimes I envy those girls that are 'in a relationship' because at times I think that they have everything. They have someone to talk to, to listen to, to play with, to go out with. But, the thing is.. the more I think that I'm lonely, the more I FEEL that I'm lonely. In fact, I know very well that I am NOT lonely. As I've mentioned above, I have two lovely parents, two lovely brothers, two best friends, an older brother to look up to, a kazillion of friends... and not forgetting to mention GOD. So, I am not lonely. When I'm in my room alone thinking that I'm lonely, in fact I am not. I just think I am. I sink myself really deep in that thought that my heart finally believe that I am lonely.

Money can't buy everything. I'm sure many of you are well aware of that. Money can buy lots of things that everybody wish they have. You think that if you have a lot of money and all those things that you want to buy, you have conquered the world. You'll be the happiest king and queen in the whole wide world. But no! Money can't buy friends (maybe yes, but not true friends), money can't buy happiness, money can't buy peace, and there are many other things that money can't buy.

Sometimes people plan way beyond their heads and think that "I feel like crap. I feel so poor living in this very small and economy-sized room and crappy-looking apartment. But imagine if I have a house. I get to decorate it the way I want, I get to make my own garden, etc etc." But think about it, once you get the house you will think differently. Yes, you will be happy. You probably won't feel like crap for the first few weeks. But what happens after? You'll feel like crap again because you're living alone in a big house! You'll get lonely and depressed. On top of that, there might be problems after problems coming at you. For example, since now you are an owner, you are responsible for fixing things on your expense. Then, you'll start complaining again.

So, in conclusion, you will never be satisfied with anything. Even if you think that you'll be satisfied because of one thing, that satisfication usually don't last very long.

Hmm, what else are in my mind at this moment? I don't know. I told you in the beginning that this entry is going to be very random. Well, thanks for reading though. Although, don't really think about what I write today, because I'm just rambling. I'm not exactly bored, but I just have so much things in mind that I think I need to write, hehe. Thanks for reading anyways.