Everything that happened on the weekend..

So many things happened this past weekend. I guess I was happy, yet upset, disappointed, frustrated, tired, and all sorts of other moods.

I left Waterloo on Friday, right after my Genetics class. I skipped thermodynamics tutorial in the afternoon because I needed to rush to Mississauga so that I can visit my old high school to request a transcript. All went well, I got a copy of my high school transcript right away. Then I went home, straight to my room, took out my biochemistry books and started nerding, all because I have a 20% worth Quiz this Tuesday (tomorrow). Then, I felt a little sleepy, so I took a nap for 1 hour so that I wouldn't be so tired coming to work at 8 pm. In my mind, I thought that I could study more on Saturday night.

So, I went to work that Friday night. Just before we closed, my friend said that, "Have you checked your schedule? You're working 11am-4pm, 8pm-closing tomorrow." I honestly thought she was joking, because we always joke around at work. So I said, "Yea right, Mike told me last week that I'd work 11am-4pm Saturday so he could train me in sandwiches." And she said, "I'm not joking.. go check it right now." So, I did.. and guess what? She was right! I was very frustrated that minute I checked my schedule. To tell you the truth, I have 2 midterms and 2 assignments due this week. I thought I would be able to at least finish studying for 1 of my midterms on the weekend, but I guess I was wrong. I had the urge to talk to my manager, but I felt bad because I just recently broke a sugar container by accident. I felt guilty as charged.

The thing is, my dad was away in Ottawa that day, so he couldn't drive me. I only had 4 hour break, and on a snowy Saturday it could take 1 hour or more to get home by bus. So, I thought to myself that I shouldn't wasting that hour and should just go study nearby. So I went to Denny's to get dinner during my break, and stayed there to study. But, well, I couldn't really study because I was tired and I regretted I didn't go home.

I haven't mentioned that I had an argument about something with my dad on Friday night on the phone. But since I come home late from work, and he had to leave early on Saturday morning, we didn't actually meet again until Sunday morning before church. I don't know why I'm upset with him. I asked him if I could do something, and he disagreed, and I couldn't accept his reasons, or maybe I couldn't accept the whole thing of why he disagreed. I thought about so many factors why I was upset with him, but I don't even know which one is right. I had this mixed feelings inside of me.

So then, yea.. this weekend I brought home my books for nothing because I barely touched them. On Sunday after church, I went to bed right away to catch up with sleep, then had to go to work that Sunday night. See, for me, church isn't just a regular 2-hour thing on Sunday. We go to church 2 hours early to set up and practice (I'm in the music team for those who didn't know). Then, after church we gotta clean up and wait until my parents drop off everybody who didn't own a car, then get an extra late lunch, then home. But I skipped lunch yesterday, so I got home at 2:30ish. See, I left at 9 am Sunday morning, and got back at 2:30 pm. Now you understand why I couldn't study at all last weekend.

So, having only had 4 hours of sleep on Sunday night, my dad drove us (my brother and I, and another friend) back to Waterloo early in the morning. When I entered the apartment, I was devastated to see that all of my plants (that I planted for my plant anatomy course) were all wilted. I was just so stressed out that I could only cry. I don't understand.. so many things happened this weekend. I'm serious I probably cried 10 times in 3 days. I don't think I've ever cried that frequently before.. or maybe I did, I don't know.

Well, I gotta go hit the books now. I just thought I should right to let this all out. And yes, I REALLYYY wish I had a sister.. you know I need that heart-to-heart talk that mostly I can't do with my mom. But it's okay, I gotta learn to be tougher and not cry every time I have problems.

Ciao for now!