Haiz.. midterm kok gak kelar2... I'm serious, my program has a never-ending midterm... once all midterms are done, 2 weeks later final exams start! T__T And I have 2 midterms in 1 week, plus assignments. The week I don't have any midterms, I have like 3 assignments due... hikssss... =(
Oh iyaa.. bad news.. I've decided to quit from Demetre.. the job that I love so much.. I'm pretty upset that I have to quit.. Many times I tell myself that I can handle it.. I can handle it.. I try to convince myself again and again.. that I can still handle it.. just ask for less shifts... but we all know that Mike will never give me less shifts.. he gave me less days, but added more hours/day.. and my marks are living proofs that I cannot handle work and school altogether. I guess I have a hard semester.. 2 Biology, 2 Chemistry and 1 Math. I don't know what I was thinking when I decided to get that job.. hmm, paying back OSAP, shopping money.. I don't know.. but I was pretty crazy.. but yea, maybe I will be able to get the job back in the summer. If Mike decides to hate me for quitting on him =( then I guess I'll find another part-timer..
I called Mike this morning to tell him that I cannot work anymore. I told him I want to come back in the summer... but he said that he can't wait for people all the time like that... well, I can understand his position... then he tried to convince me that work does not have anything to do with school.. and I said, it does.. because I have less time to study and I get very tired.. then he said that maybe I don't eat enough or don't get enough vitamins.. then he added that he sleeps for 3 - 4 hours a day, but he is never tired. And I'm like T___T I was literally speechless.. I mean, help me out.. I don't want to quit either.. but try to understand my position too.. So, he didn't want to listen to what I have to say and he said that we will talk on Saturday when I come for work. But I did ask him to not to schedule me next week. I hope I can come in this Friday to hand in my letter of resignation.
Wow.. lol.. what a crappy entry.. but it's okay.. I just need to rant..
Later Days!
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
Reading Week is over...
So... reading week is over.. =( I guess a week break from school just isn't enough. But I really had a blast last week. I got to see my friends, studied (not enough =p), and the best part was that three pastors came from Surabaya to visit us here. They were great and they brought us much blessings.. MUCH! Too bad they are only staying for a week, and I only got to see them for 3 days. I will definitely miss them, especially Tante Hana. I know I'll miss her for sure, even though we haven't gotten to know each other much. I hope we will meet again.
I learned 2 new songs from them. One of them I will share today, the other I will post on another day. I forgot the title to this one though, but it's a really nice song. Here goes..
Bukan dengan kekuatanku
Ku dapat jalani hidupku
Tanpa Tuhan yang di sampingku
Ku tak mampu sendiri
Engkaulah kuatku
Yang menopangku
Chorus:
Kupadang wajahMu dan berseru
Pertolonganku datang dariMu
Peganglah tanganku jangan lepaskan
Kaulah harapan dalam hidupku
God bless all of you!
I learned 2 new songs from them. One of them I will share today, the other I will post on another day. I forgot the title to this one though, but it's a really nice song. Here goes..
Bukan dengan kekuatanku
Ku dapat jalani hidupku
Tanpa Tuhan yang di sampingku
Ku tak mampu sendiri
Engkaulah kuatku
Yang menopangku
Chorus:
Kupadang wajahMu dan berseru
Pertolonganku datang dariMu
Peganglah tanganku jangan lepaskan
Kaulah harapan dalam hidupku
God bless all of you!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Happy Valentine's Day
Aaahh.. It's already valentine's.. again? =p Valentine's just like any other ordinary days for me. Because Valentine's days are always around midterm weeks, so the only date I'll be spending time with is my book, and I guess the library. In fact, I have a 20% quiz tomorrow, which I barely studied for because I just finished 2 assignments this morning!
Well, to everybody that I love and love me, I'd like to wish you guys a Happy Valentine's Day! My love to all of you.. <3
Love,
Farah
Well, to everybody that I love and love me, I'd like to wish you guys a Happy Valentine's Day! My love to all of you.. <3
Love,
Farah
Monday, February 12, 2007
I met a guy...
Hmmm.. I guess that title says it all. But, it's not that we're dating or anything. In fact, we haven't even gotten to know each other yet. But we met twice, and I think we both knew we have something for each other. Well, at least I know that I think he's kinda cute.
So here goes the story. Friday 2 weeks ago, I was hostess-ing at Caffe Demetre. He came with a friend and I sat them by the window, close to the hostess-ing podium. I kinda noticed that one of the two guys kept on staring at me ever since he came in. I thought I had something in my hair or something, because he couldn't keep his eyes off me. Deep down I already thought to myself that he's kinda cute. Well, he isn't the hottest guys I've ever met, but trust me, most hot guys I know are players! Besides, I'm not really 'into' those model-type hot guys. I like to think that they're hot, yes, but I don't think I'd go for them.
So, anyway.. Even though I have a thought in my head that he is cute, I didn't go any farther than that. So far, the guys that I like are either taken, or don't like me back. So, I just kind of let go of those thoughts.
BUTTTTTTTT..................... =D LOL! I was hostess-ing again the past Friday, and guess what.. HE CAME AGAIN! This time he came alone and he brought his work with him. He brought a book and papers. He came at the worst time actually. We had a HUGE line up when he came. Well, when he was lining up, he was already staring at me. Stupid me, at first I forgot that we met the past week already. But he kinda looked familiar. So I thought, is he Indonesian? Did I meet him somewhere but don't remember? I had thoughts along those lines.
It took me a goooooddd few minutes to realize that.... he's that guy that stared at me last week. (I honestly feel like a high-schooler right now... *sigh* my love life is pathetic =p) I was going back and forth, from one corner of the store to the other, and he kept on watching me. I started to feel a little uncomfortable, but at the same time, I kinda like the attention that he was giving me. But, I tried to act as normal as possible.
Because we were so busy, the wife of my boss took over hostess-ing while I help the waitress picking up dirty plates. And she sat him at the worst table ever!!! I kinda hoped that she would sit him in the corner, somewhere.. but he was sitting right at the center of the store.. and I practically walked back and forth in front of him!
I know that he actually tried to make a conversation with me. Whenever I was walking his way, he would stare at me like crazy as if he was trying to talk to me. I looked at him and smiled at times, but I didn't want to over-do it, you know what I mean. I noticed that one time, when I was near his area, he took out a piece of white envelope and he was holding a pen. Maybe he wanted to try to get my name or contact information. But, I was so scared that I pretended I didn't look at him. But, I saw it! =( It's just that... what if he really asked those questions, am I going to just give it to him?? I mean, a stranger that I just met from nowhere! Usually when strangers asked, I'd give my msn contact, but that's it. And I usually block them from my MSN anyway. =p But, this guy.. I wouldn't block or ignore him. I don't know.. those thoughts were just rushing in my head.
I'm actually kinda upset now that I don't work on Fridays anymore since I asked my boss to cut down my shifts. What if I don't see him anymore? When I was closing the store at 2 AM, I was hoping he'd come back, you know. Because, I think that if he actually asked for my contacts when I was working, I wouldn't have given it to him. I would probably act really cold towards him, because I'm trying to hide my own emotions, and at the same time, I don't want my co-workers to find out. I'm sure some of them did, cuz he was practically watching me wherever I go. But, if he came back and asked when there was limited people around, maybe I'd give in. =p
I don't think I like "like" him, but honestly I start thinking about him.. a lot. *blushes*
Ok Farah.. no more love story.. fun time's over, now it's time to get back to books!
Later Alligator!
So here goes the story. Friday 2 weeks ago, I was hostess-ing at Caffe Demetre. He came with a friend and I sat them by the window, close to the hostess-ing podium. I kinda noticed that one of the two guys kept on staring at me ever since he came in. I thought I had something in my hair or something, because he couldn't keep his eyes off me. Deep down I already thought to myself that he's kinda cute. Well, he isn't the hottest guys I've ever met, but trust me, most hot guys I know are players! Besides, I'm not really 'into' those model-type hot guys. I like to think that they're hot, yes, but I don't think I'd go for them.
So, anyway.. Even though I have a thought in my head that he is cute, I didn't go any farther than that. So far, the guys that I like are either taken, or don't like me back. So, I just kind of let go of those thoughts.
BUTTTTTTTT..................... =D LOL! I was hostess-ing again the past Friday, and guess what.. HE CAME AGAIN! This time he came alone and he brought his work with him. He brought a book and papers. He came at the worst time actually. We had a HUGE line up when he came. Well, when he was lining up, he was already staring at me. Stupid me, at first I forgot that we met the past week already. But he kinda looked familiar. So I thought, is he Indonesian? Did I meet him somewhere but don't remember? I had thoughts along those lines.
It took me a goooooddd few minutes to realize that.... he's that guy that stared at me last week. (I honestly feel like a high-schooler right now... *sigh* my love life is pathetic =p) I was going back and forth, from one corner of the store to the other, and he kept on watching me. I started to feel a little uncomfortable, but at the same time, I kinda like the attention that he was giving me. But, I tried to act as normal as possible.
Because we were so busy, the wife of my boss took over hostess-ing while I help the waitress picking up dirty plates. And she sat him at the worst table ever!!! I kinda hoped that she would sit him in the corner, somewhere.. but he was sitting right at the center of the store.. and I practically walked back and forth in front of him!
I know that he actually tried to make a conversation with me. Whenever I was walking his way, he would stare at me like crazy as if he was trying to talk to me. I looked at him and smiled at times, but I didn't want to over-do it, you know what I mean. I noticed that one time, when I was near his area, he took out a piece of white envelope and he was holding a pen. Maybe he wanted to try to get my name or contact information. But, I was so scared that I pretended I didn't look at him. But, I saw it! =( It's just that... what if he really asked those questions, am I going to just give it to him?? I mean, a stranger that I just met from nowhere! Usually when strangers asked, I'd give my msn contact, but that's it. And I usually block them from my MSN anyway. =p But, this guy.. I wouldn't block or ignore him. I don't know.. those thoughts were just rushing in my head.
I'm actually kinda upset now that I don't work on Fridays anymore since I asked my boss to cut down my shifts. What if I don't see him anymore? When I was closing the store at 2 AM, I was hoping he'd come back, you know. Because, I think that if he actually asked for my contacts when I was working, I wouldn't have given it to him. I would probably act really cold towards him, because I'm trying to hide my own emotions, and at the same time, I don't want my co-workers to find out. I'm sure some of them did, cuz he was practically watching me wherever I go. But, if he came back and asked when there was limited people around, maybe I'd give in. =p
I don't think I like "like" him, but honestly I start thinking about him.. a lot. *blushes*
Ok Farah.. no more love story.. fun time's over, now it's time to get back to books!
Later Alligator!
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Dilemma..
I'm in a dilemma. I'm in a dilemma!!
My marks are dropping, should I quit my job? My boss gave me less shifts for next week, he gave me 2 days now. Actually, I really like my new schedule because he gave me Saturday morning and Sunday night. With the new schedule, I do not have to stay up late at all because Sunday night is never too crowded. I think the staying up late killed me the most.
So now another problem arises. Every Saturday my dad cannot drive me to work. It costs me $15 by cab to get there. Today is actually the third time I work Saturday morning, and the last two times I took a cab there. I didn't want to bus there because I work on Friday night and I sleep at 3 AM. I dont' want to wake up 1 hr earlier to catch the bus. On top of that, the bus comes like once by the hour on the weekends!! o.O"
So I want to work so that I can pay back my loan at least slowly! But if I work a total of 5 hours on Saturday, so I get a total of $40. So $40 minus $15 minus $taxes minus $bus (to go back home), how much do I really make?? On top of that if I bus there and home, hmmmm... that's another 2 hours on top of my work hours. I mean, I'm not trying to be picky or anything, but right now I'm really tight with my time. It's like I need the day to be twice longer!
I don't know.. should I???? I really don't want to because I LOVE my job... not to mention my boss and his wife have been very nice to me.. although sometimes they deducted money for no reason, i.e. my tips!
Anyway, I gotta get ready for work.
Ciao!
My marks are dropping, should I quit my job? My boss gave me less shifts for next week, he gave me 2 days now. Actually, I really like my new schedule because he gave me Saturday morning and Sunday night. With the new schedule, I do not have to stay up late at all because Sunday night is never too crowded. I think the staying up late killed me the most.
So now another problem arises. Every Saturday my dad cannot drive me to work. It costs me $15 by cab to get there. Today is actually the third time I work Saturday morning, and the last two times I took a cab there. I didn't want to bus there because I work on Friday night and I sleep at 3 AM. I dont' want to wake up 1 hr earlier to catch the bus. On top of that, the bus comes like once by the hour on the weekends!! o.O"
So I want to work so that I can pay back my loan at least slowly! But if I work a total of 5 hours on Saturday, so I get a total of $40. So $40 minus $15 minus $taxes minus $bus (to go back home), how much do I really make?? On top of that if I bus there and home, hmmmm... that's another 2 hours on top of my work hours. I mean, I'm not trying to be picky or anything, but right now I'm really tight with my time. It's like I need the day to be twice longer!
I don't know.. should I???? I really don't want to because I LOVE my job... not to mention my boss and his wife have been very nice to me.. although sometimes they deducted money for no reason, i.e. my tips!
Anyway, I gotta get ready for work.
Ciao!
Thursday, February 08, 2007
The update..
Okay.. So I haven't updated in a week or so. I was VERRRYY busy! Even now I shouldn't be writing, but I have 3 minutes/ I can't remember anymore where I left off, but yea I have a couple things in mind.
First, I was very upset and disappointed that my marks went down! See, this is where I kept on telling myself, "I knew I shouldn't have worked in the first place." I tried to get less shifts. Well, I wanted to work once a week because I do not want to quit from that place. I need the money and I plan to still work there in the summer. But my boss isn't letting me work 1 day/week. He would give me 2 days/week, but that's it. I'm still deciding on what to do. For now it should be okay because reading week is coming. If I ever needed a break from work it's gonna be this weekend, because I hvae 2 midterms and 3 assignments due next week! But I'm working 3 days this weekend! *sigh* T____T
Uh oh, 3 minutes is up. Well, I found myself a dance partner!
I'll update sometime later when I get stressed out with work!
Later!
First, I was very upset and disappointed that my marks went down! See, this is where I kept on telling myself, "I knew I shouldn't have worked in the first place." I tried to get less shifts. Well, I wanted to work once a week because I do not want to quit from that place. I need the money and I plan to still work there in the summer. But my boss isn't letting me work 1 day/week. He would give me 2 days/week, but that's it. I'm still deciding on what to do. For now it should be okay because reading week is coming. If I ever needed a break from work it's gonna be this weekend, because I hvae 2 midterms and 3 assignments due next week! But I'm working 3 days this weekend! *sigh* T____T
Uh oh, 3 minutes is up. Well, I found myself a dance partner!
I'll update sometime later when I get stressed out with work!
Later!
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