Some people say that life is not fair. Some people say that life is a blessing. Why do these two statements contradict with each other?
I spent my day at the Ontario Provincial Court yesterday. My dad was helping one of his congregations and bail her out of jail. Why was she in jail? She is not a bad person, not at all. She's a healthy lady, good wife, good parent, and just basically "a good gal." So, again, why is she in jail then?
You can say that accidents happen. Yes, they do in fact happen a lot without any of our intentions. Anyway.. It was one tired, stressful night for the family and the wife "snapped" and decided to grab a meat cleaver and cut her husband's left lower leg. She just "lost" it, I guess. The second she found out what happened, she was shocked to herself and called 911 right away. So, the police and ambulance came and got her arrested. Now, the husband and the wife are not allowed to live together, so one of them and 1 kid might be living with us from now on.
Is it her fault? Would you think it's her fault? The courts did not care whether it was just an accident or not. In their eyes, she's a criminal. But, is she really a criminal at heart?
Although we are not related at all, I can't help myself to cry and feel what they feel. I think about their 13 year-old daughter and how she feels. I was just at her age not too long ago, and what would I do if I was at her position?
Last night, I understand what blessings I have received from God. I am blessed with two good parents and two awesome brothers. I live in a good, more than decent, home with big-screen TV, a big kitchen, a music room. I have a really big bedroom with nice furnitures. I have a laptop, a really cool guitar, stereo systems, etc. How could I not be thankful enough? How could I be complaining about my life? What do I not have that I should be complaining about?
I couldn't stop thinking and thanking God that night. If I was that little girl, would I complain even more? Would I be mad at God?
I've heard someone said that "wealth pulls you even farther away from God." I think this is true. The more you have, the more you complain about what you don't have. I understand that a lot of things do not happen the way I want them to. But, they're all parts of God's plan for me. So, from now on I want to stop complaining and be thankful about what I have. God has showered me with so many blessings, but I never realized them because I keep on focusing on what I don't have and complain about them.
So, I think life is GREAT and I thank God for this understanding and His never-ending blessings in my life.
Friday, December 23, 2005
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Exams and Christmas Madness!!!!!
I need sleep! I need sleep! I need sleep! I need sleep! I need sleep!
:p that's all my blog will say.. hehe..
Anyway, I am finally done with exams. I think I did really well on four of them, except the last one. I was pretty upset with the last one because I didn't think I was prepared enough. You see, the day before my exam, my best friend decided to come over and bugged me. Well, I liked the companion, but the timing was just not right. I didn't really want to kick her out because I didn't think that was nice nor polite. Besides, she was really nice to me. She bought me some study snacks when she came over. She also helped me with the Christmas decorations. Well, I ended up pullin' an all-niter that night and didn't sleep at all for my 9:00 am exam the next day. My dad decided to drive me because I did not sleep and I wasn't supposed to drive on a highway when I had no sleep at all. I think I okay, but not what I expected. I'm still regretting about what happened actually. I felt like, I have the chance, but I blew it all over. I am literally rubbing this over my face as it will not happen again next time. I repeat, will NOT!
Well, I slept for 8 hours in 3 days now. Our church's christmas celebration is today at 5:00 pm. So, right after my exam was done, I came home straight and started working right away. I did not even had time to catch sleep. =( It's crazy. It's madness one might say! :p
I actually wish that the celebration would be pushed back to the 25th. Actually, it'd probably be more appropriate on the 25th anyway. But, they did not want it to interfere with family meetings and all. I still want to do so much for this christmas. Better music, better decorations, better everything and more everything. I was planning to make a bookmark. Although I know computer designing is just not my thing, and I suck I know that. But, if I don't do it, who else would? And I just want to make a difference. I'd like to make everything much better than what we have right now. Afterall, I'm only doing this for God. I just want to do my best, but sometimes I get upset because time just simply won't let me!
Alright then.. less complaining, more work and more sleep! That's what I really should do right now! =) I know I already tried to do my best, and I will let God do the rest! So God, feel free to do ur job tonight! Show 'em YOUR might power! :D
G'nites!
:p that's all my blog will say.. hehe..
Anyway, I am finally done with exams. I think I did really well on four of them, except the last one. I was pretty upset with the last one because I didn't think I was prepared enough. You see, the day before my exam, my best friend decided to come over and bugged me. Well, I liked the companion, but the timing was just not right. I didn't really want to kick her out because I didn't think that was nice nor polite. Besides, she was really nice to me. She bought me some study snacks when she came over. She also helped me with the Christmas decorations. Well, I ended up pullin' an all-niter that night and didn't sleep at all for my 9:00 am exam the next day. My dad decided to drive me because I did not sleep and I wasn't supposed to drive on a highway when I had no sleep at all. I think I okay, but not what I expected. I'm still regretting about what happened actually. I felt like, I have the chance, but I blew it all over. I am literally rubbing this over my face as it will not happen again next time. I repeat, will NOT!
Well, I slept for 8 hours in 3 days now. Our church's christmas celebration is today at 5:00 pm. So, right after my exam was done, I came home straight and started working right away. I did not even had time to catch sleep. =( It's crazy. It's madness one might say! :p
I actually wish that the celebration would be pushed back to the 25th. Actually, it'd probably be more appropriate on the 25th anyway. But, they did not want it to interfere with family meetings and all. I still want to do so much for this christmas. Better music, better decorations, better everything and more everything. I was planning to make a bookmark. Although I know computer designing is just not my thing, and I suck I know that. But, if I don't do it, who else would? And I just want to make a difference. I'd like to make everything much better than what we have right now. Afterall, I'm only doing this for God. I just want to do my best, but sometimes I get upset because time just simply won't let me!
Alright then.. less complaining, more work and more sleep! That's what I really should do right now! =) I know I already tried to do my best, and I will let God do the rest! So God, feel free to do ur job tonight! Show 'em YOUR might power! :D
G'nites!
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Will You Wait For Me?
Will You Wait For Me
I need to talk with you again why did you go away
All our time together just feels like yesterday
I never thought I’d see a single day without you
The things we take for granted. We can sometimes lose
And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again? Will I see you again?
Cos time will pass me by. Maybe I’ll never learn to smile
But I know I’ll make it through if you wait for me
And all the tears I cry
No matter how I try. They’ll never bring you home to me
Won’t you wait for me in heaven?
Do you remember how it was when we never seemed to care?
The days went by so quickly cos I thought you’d always be there
And it’s hard to let you go though I know that I must try
I feel like I’ve been cheated cos we never said goodbye
Cos I miss you so
And I need to know will you wait for me?
And time will pass me by. Maybe I’ll never learn to smile
But I know I’ll make it through if you wait for me
I need to talk with you again why did you go away
All our time together just feels like yesterday
I never thought I’d see a single day without you
The things we take for granted. We can sometimes lose
And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again? Will I see you again?
Cos time will pass me by. Maybe I’ll never learn to smile
But I know I’ll make it through if you wait for me
And all the tears I cry
No matter how I try. They’ll never bring you home to me
Won’t you wait for me in heaven?
Do you remember how it was when we never seemed to care?
The days went by so quickly cos I thought you’d always be there
And it’s hard to let you go though I know that I must try
I feel like I’ve been cheated cos we never said goodbye
Cos I miss you so
And I need to know will you wait for me?
And time will pass me by. Maybe I’ll never learn to smile
But I know I’ll make it through if you wait for me
Friday, October 07, 2005
Maybe I Should Wish on a Star..
I think the title says it all. Maybe I should wish upon a star to take me there, where my heart wants to be. It seems wrong and everybody knows it only happens in fairy tales. But what else can this desperate and tired heart of mine do? My heart's eyes are swollen 'cuz it cried too much already. Not only that, the eyes on my face are red and swollen 'cuz I had to cry myself to sleep last night.
At this point, maybe I'll try to wish on a star. Who knows if it is willing to help me. Nothing will harm me from doing that anyway. Maybe the star would be kind enough to deliver my message to him. A message from my heart to his.
Nobody out there would listen patiently to me, so I'm hoping the star would be patient enough to listen to what I have to say.
I miss the summer where my friends and I would drive to the beach on the weekends and stayed there until all the stars came out. It would get really quiet out there. Everybody would've left the beach because it was supposed to close at 11 pm. All I heard was the voices of my closest friends laughing around, joking around, sharing stories, playing truth or dare. When we were all quiet, I secretly watched at the stars and said my wishes. Well, part of my wishes came true last Sunday. The other part is still coming, I hope.
My dad and I fought last night and I think that the timing was just off, way off. I wish we could've had that fight some other time, but I guess not. Now I just want to be alone, away from him. He crushed my heart that was already broken into pieces, and now into millions and millions of pieces. My heart was really fragile last night. Every little things made me cry, even things that should've been heart-warming.
Anyway, anybody wants to accompany me to the beach at night so I can tell the stars my wishes?
At this point, maybe I'll try to wish on a star. Who knows if it is willing to help me. Nothing will harm me from doing that anyway. Maybe the star would be kind enough to deliver my message to him. A message from my heart to his.
Nobody out there would listen patiently to me, so I'm hoping the star would be patient enough to listen to what I have to say.
I miss the summer where my friends and I would drive to the beach on the weekends and stayed there until all the stars came out. It would get really quiet out there. Everybody would've left the beach because it was supposed to close at 11 pm. All I heard was the voices of my closest friends laughing around, joking around, sharing stories, playing truth or dare. When we were all quiet, I secretly watched at the stars and said my wishes. Well, part of my wishes came true last Sunday. The other part is still coming, I hope.
My dad and I fought last night and I think that the timing was just off, way off. I wish we could've had that fight some other time, but I guess not. Now I just want to be alone, away from him. He crushed my heart that was already broken into pieces, and now into millions and millions of pieces. My heart was really fragile last night. Every little things made me cry, even things that should've been heart-warming.
Anyway, anybody wants to accompany me to the beach at night so I can tell the stars my wishes?
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Did I Make a Mistake?
Did I make a mistake when I chose to live at home and drive for an hour everyday to school? Did I make a mistake when I decided to stay close to my family and have them right beside me all the time? Because it seemed to me that when I'm far away from the people I love, then nobody will get hurt. I will never hurt them and they will never hurt me... *sigh*
Did I make a mistake when I let him have my heart? Did I make a mistakes when I chose to loosen up all my gears and follow him? Did I make a mistake when I chose to let my heart fall for him? Because it had been the biggest distraction in my life and my heart had been torned into pieces a million times...
Did I make a mistake when I do this? Did I make a mistake when I decided to do that? Did I make a mistake when I chose to be like this, and be like that? Is my life full of mistakes?
When would I learn to not make mistakes? When would I learn to learn from my mistakes?
*sigh*
Did I make a mistake when I let him have my heart? Did I make a mistakes when I chose to loosen up all my gears and follow him? Did I make a mistake when I chose to let my heart fall for him? Because it had been the biggest distraction in my life and my heart had been torned into pieces a million times...
Did I make a mistake when I do this? Did I make a mistake when I decided to do that? Did I make a mistake when I chose to be like this, and be like that? Is my life full of mistakes?
When would I learn to not make mistakes? When would I learn to learn from my mistakes?
*sigh*
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
It Isn't the End of the World!
I am having such a bad day. I woke up late this morning and decided to skip my first class AGAIN! This is the second time I missed a class since school started. I did not know what to do though because I slept so late last night. I couldn't just sleep for 4 hours and drive for 1 hour to school and stay there for another 14 hours then drive for another 1 hour back home. I cannot drive on the highway if I don't have enough good night sleep.
I feel like I have so much pressures going on in my life. The pressure to please God, to please my parents, to please my brothers, to please my friends, to please myself, to get scholarships, and the list goes on. I am just a person and there is no way for me to please everyone including myself.
My parents expect so much from me that sometimes I feel like they don't care about how much work I have, how tired I am and even worse, how I feel. It seems like they want me to do everything. To do good in school, take care of everything at church, do all chores at home. I cannot do all those things. I wish I had more than 24 hours in a day so I can please everyone, but it will just not happen that way.
I know that sometimes they see me slack around the house. But I also need a break. I can't just drone on doing work work and work all day long. Sometimes I feel like I needed to hide from them to take a break so that I will not upset them for seeing me not doing anything. On the other hand, I also feel guilty because I do not want to see them upset. I want to keep them happy all the time. But how can I do that with such limited time I have in my life right now.
Anyway, when I woke up this morning, the first thing that came up to my mind was that I have to cancel my road-test appointment because I am just not ready. Then, I was hit by the red bolded words that said, "Effective Monday, September 26, 2005, road test appointments must be cancelled at least 48 hours before the scheduled date and time of test; otherwise you will be charged a late cancellation fee of $25.00. " I had the longest sigh after that because it used to be 24 hours in advanced! Now what am I going to do? I am not ready for the test, I have two quizzes this week, two assignments also due this week, another two quizzes next week, one assignment and a midterm! I am going crazy!!!
I'm having such a bad day. I spend double the time that I used to spend to study now because half of the time my mind travels somewhere else. But it's okay, because I have decided that my life goes on with or without him! :'( I have a major goal that I've set for myself for this year and I am letting that slide. It's a tough choice, but with me life is never fair! Maybe we will get to meet again in the future, perhaps when we are both out of school, and when God finally opens the way for us. :'( Yes, please do not mind if you see me cry a river!
It's okay, I will be okay in a couple of days. I hope things will go back to normal for me. When bad things happen in your life, and when you feel really upset, remember that it isn't the end of the world.
I feel like I have so much pressures going on in my life. The pressure to please God, to please my parents, to please my brothers, to please my friends, to please myself, to get scholarships, and the list goes on. I am just a person and there is no way for me to please everyone including myself.
My parents expect so much from me that sometimes I feel like they don't care about how much work I have, how tired I am and even worse, how I feel. It seems like they want me to do everything. To do good in school, take care of everything at church, do all chores at home. I cannot do all those things. I wish I had more than 24 hours in a day so I can please everyone, but it will just not happen that way.
I know that sometimes they see me slack around the house. But I also need a break. I can't just drone on doing work work and work all day long. Sometimes I feel like I needed to hide from them to take a break so that I will not upset them for seeing me not doing anything. On the other hand, I also feel guilty because I do not want to see them upset. I want to keep them happy all the time. But how can I do that with such limited time I have in my life right now.
Anyway, when I woke up this morning, the first thing that came up to my mind was that I have to cancel my road-test appointment because I am just not ready. Then, I was hit by the red bolded words that said, "Effective Monday, September 26, 2005, road test appointments must be cancelled at least 48 hours before the scheduled date and time of test; otherwise you will be charged a late cancellation fee of $25.00. " I had the longest sigh after that because it used to be 24 hours in advanced! Now what am I going to do? I am not ready for the test, I have two quizzes this week, two assignments also due this week, another two quizzes next week, one assignment and a midterm! I am going crazy!!!
I'm having such a bad day. I spend double the time that I used to spend to study now because half of the time my mind travels somewhere else. But it's okay, because I have decided that my life goes on with or without him! :'( I have a major goal that I've set for myself for this year and I am letting that slide. It's a tough choice, but with me life is never fair! Maybe we will get to meet again in the future, perhaps when we are both out of school, and when God finally opens the way for us. :'( Yes, please do not mind if you see me cry a river!
It's okay, I will be okay in a couple of days. I hope things will go back to normal for me. When bad things happen in your life, and when you feel really upset, remember that it isn't the end of the world.
Monday, October 03, 2005
Don't Know How to Describe...
Have ever felt so happy the day before, the night before, the seconds before you fell asleep, and then you just felt so terrible, so down, so not in the mood right when you opened your eyes the next morning?
That is how bad and how awkward I feel right now. I don't feel like doing anything, not even eating my breakfast nor lunch. I have two quizzes, two assignments and a road test for my G license, but I am just not in the mood to study or practice or doing anything at all!
It seems like my heart and my mind is somewhere else. I don't know any other words or expressions to describe it better.
If you have ever had this type of syndrome, please tell me know about it!
That is how bad and how awkward I feel right now. I don't feel like doing anything, not even eating my breakfast nor lunch. I have two quizzes, two assignments and a road test for my G license, but I am just not in the mood to study or practice or doing anything at all!
It seems like my heart and my mind is somewhere else. I don't know any other words or expressions to describe it better.
If you have ever had this type of syndrome, please tell me know about it!
Friday, April 01, 2005
Still Sick!
I miss having my mommy around to take care of me when I'm sick. I miss having all those food prepared on the table for lunch and supper. I miss her yelling to remind me to take my medicine. I miss her coming into my room to see if I was feeling better of if I needed anything... and the list goes on! Now I have to worry about what to eat when I'm sick.. and plus the medicine!
I pretty much live alone here in waterloo. Since I am not sharing my place with anybody anymore, I've been spending my study time at home instead of at school. Last year when I had roommates, there was no way for me to study at home. It gets kind of lonely and boring after a while. It seems like my life is like a boring cycle. Sleep, wake up, shower, devotion, study, go to school, nap, study, then sleep again! In fact, that is what I do everyday and basically in the same order!
Although my parents don't live far, only 1 hour away, I still pretty much rely on myself for everything. Ever since my dad took this huge decision and basically had a new career that he himself probably have never thought of, my parents have been real busy that they have no time for me anymore. Last year, even though I lived 1 hour away from them, I never had to worry about food, or anything because my mom provided everything. My dad was in Indo, but he managed to text message me everyday to see how I was doing. Now I have to be satisfied with Indomie when I don't have time to cook or buy food!
It's not that I'm complaining about my dad's new job. I'm actually grateful and I'm very proud of him to be able to do that. Imagine me many years later when I'm in my white lab coat, then God offered me this huge thing, it would probably kill me to come up with a decision.
I guess it is also time for me to grow up. I mean, I'm nearly 20 and I still can call myself childish. So, being left alone is probably the best way for me to grow up. On top of that, I know that God is teaching me to rely on Him alone and not on other people. I'm not an independent type of person, and I always like to depend on other people instead of God alone. Here, in my own place, I can do whatever I want. I can sing and worship as loud as I want, I can pray whenever and whatever I do, nobody would know and care about it!
Even though I think that my parents don't really have time for me anymore, but I know they still care about me very much. Once every two or three days, my dad still sends me text messages or emails making sure I am okay. Simple basic questions coming from my parents make me smile, such as "How your day at school?" "Have you eaten yet?" "Would you like a ride home tomorrow?" "Don't forget to pray and lock up all doors," "God bless you abundantly."
Anyway, I just want to point out that I'm thankful that I still have parents that love me very much, support me and accept me just the way I am!
I pretty much live alone here in waterloo. Since I am not sharing my place with anybody anymore, I've been spending my study time at home instead of at school. Last year when I had roommates, there was no way for me to study at home. It gets kind of lonely and boring after a while. It seems like my life is like a boring cycle. Sleep, wake up, shower, devotion, study, go to school, nap, study, then sleep again! In fact, that is what I do everyday and basically in the same order!
Although my parents don't live far, only 1 hour away, I still pretty much rely on myself for everything. Ever since my dad took this huge decision and basically had a new career that he himself probably have never thought of, my parents have been real busy that they have no time for me anymore. Last year, even though I lived 1 hour away from them, I never had to worry about food, or anything because my mom provided everything. My dad was in Indo, but he managed to text message me everyday to see how I was doing. Now I have to be satisfied with Indomie when I don't have time to cook or buy food!
It's not that I'm complaining about my dad's new job. I'm actually grateful and I'm very proud of him to be able to do that. Imagine me many years later when I'm in my white lab coat, then God offered me this huge thing, it would probably kill me to come up with a decision.
I guess it is also time for me to grow up. I mean, I'm nearly 20 and I still can call myself childish. So, being left alone is probably the best way for me to grow up. On top of that, I know that God is teaching me to rely on Him alone and not on other people. I'm not an independent type of person, and I always like to depend on other people instead of God alone. Here, in my own place, I can do whatever I want. I can sing and worship as loud as I want, I can pray whenever and whatever I do, nobody would know and care about it!
Even though I think that my parents don't really have time for me anymore, but I know they still care about me very much. Once every two or three days, my dad still sends me text messages or emails making sure I am okay. Simple basic questions coming from my parents make me smile, such as "How your day at school?" "Have you eaten yet?" "Would you like a ride home tomorrow?" "Don't forget to pray and lock up all doors," "God bless you abundantly."
Anyway, I just want to point out that I'm thankful that I still have parents that love me very much, support me and accept me just the way I am!
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Do I really have to get sick NOW?!
I hate being sick! As much as I loved being sick when I was little because I got to skip school, it annoys me very much now that I am in university. I was never sick throughout this year (both terms), not even a little cough or cold. But at this time of the year when time management is very critical, I HAD TO get sick!
I have a critical thinking essay test this saturday and four exams coming up next week. I have planned my time pretty well so that I would be able to go through every chapters I have to get through for my exams. Due to my sickness, many things have been delayed. Now I am concerned if I will be able to catch up in my studying. I haven't even done the practice essays for this essay admissions test!
My head is a bit dizzy, my nose can't stop running, I am losing my voice.. and I cannot concentrate!! I have been eating nothing but soup and white bread since morning because I simply cannot swallow any solid and hard food. This sore throat is bugging me!
I tried to get lots of sleep last night hoping that I will wake up healthy. I had about 10 hours of sleep, and guess what, I woke up feeling even worse! I tried to take a nap in the afternoon, but I couldn't because I had too much sleep last night. I guess I am used to sleeping 5 - 6 hours a night!
Anyway, I will quit complaining about being sick and concentrate on my essay! I will go home early tomorrow and will for sure get a good night sleep hoping that I will be fit on Saturday morning ready to write my essay.
Adios!
I have a critical thinking essay test this saturday and four exams coming up next week. I have planned my time pretty well so that I would be able to go through every chapters I have to get through for my exams. Due to my sickness, many things have been delayed. Now I am concerned if I will be able to catch up in my studying. I haven't even done the practice essays for this essay admissions test!
My head is a bit dizzy, my nose can't stop running, I am losing my voice.. and I cannot concentrate!! I have been eating nothing but soup and white bread since morning because I simply cannot swallow any solid and hard food. This sore throat is bugging me!
I tried to get lots of sleep last night hoping that I will wake up healthy. I had about 10 hours of sleep, and guess what, I woke up feeling even worse! I tried to take a nap in the afternoon, but I couldn't because I had too much sleep last night. I guess I am used to sleeping 5 - 6 hours a night!
Anyway, I will quit complaining about being sick and concentrate on my essay! I will go home early tomorrow and will for sure get a good night sleep hoping that I will be fit on Saturday morning ready to write my essay.
Adios!
Monday, March 14, 2005
A Great and Wasted Weekend.. =)
I had such a great weekend! I had the privilege to get to know this new couple from church better than ever! They just got here for a few months and have been a GREAT blessing for me, my family and the church! The husband is such a great musician! He's been helping us improve our skills, and not forgetting that he's good enough to cover our mistakes during service! ooops =p The wife is such a great cook! She actually had a diploma from a culinary school, and is an expert in Asian and Western food!! I've tasted her food and they taste very good! They sleep over at my house, back home in Mississauga, every weekend from Thursday night to Sunday! The husband is also such a good joker! I bet you that he's probably one of the funniest guy around that u've ever seen.
Anyway, I did not study as much as I do this weekend. I did, as usual, went to the library on Saturday. However, on sunday I ended up going shopping with this new couple and the other youth! The wife and I spent a lot of time talking about many things. I learned a lot of things from her! She even taught me how to do make up! We went shopping to Urban Behaviour for 2 hours (LOL!!) then went to this make up store (bodyshop-like) and she put make-up on me from the free testers! =p She promised to teach me over the summer. I'll be one of those pretty women walking down the street! =p Then we went to bubble tea shop (again! twice this weekend with the same gank) and drove them home! I had such a great time and great laughs!
Although I have a lot to catch up on this week due to my wasted weekend, however it was such a worthwhile time! Besides, I haven't gone shopping since boxing day! So I think, as a woman, I deserve some shopping time on sundays. =p
Anyway, as much as I hate Mondays, I have to start to befriend my books again!
Have a great week everyone!
Anyway, I did not study as much as I do this weekend. I did, as usual, went to the library on Saturday. However, on sunday I ended up going shopping with this new couple and the other youth! The wife and I spent a lot of time talking about many things. I learned a lot of things from her! She even taught me how to do make up! We went shopping to Urban Behaviour for 2 hours (LOL!!) then went to this make up store (bodyshop-like) and she put make-up on me from the free testers! =p She promised to teach me over the summer. I'll be one of those pretty women walking down the street! =p Then we went to bubble tea shop (again! twice this weekend with the same gank) and drove them home! I had such a great time and great laughs!
Although I have a lot to catch up on this week due to my wasted weekend, however it was such a worthwhile time! Besides, I haven't gone shopping since boxing day! So I think, as a woman, I deserve some shopping time on sundays. =p
Anyway, as much as I hate Mondays, I have to start to befriend my books again!
Have a great week everyone!
Monday, February 28, 2005
Just Thinking...
It's past 2 am yet I don't have the urge of going to bed. It has been a long day, had 7 hours of classes non-stop and on top of that I had to stay at school for another 2 hours to work on the cell biology article! I also woke up at 5 am this morning, and I still need to catch up on some sleep from the one-day trip to Ottawa and the lack of sleep on Sunday.
I came back here to Waterloo on Monday morning. It has not even been a day but I feel so homesick already. I miss home, I miss my friends, I miss Toronto!
This year's reading was so awesome. I had a blast last week! I went to Toronto a lot, went skating, ate street hot dogs, walked in the freezing weather at night with a second cup ESPRESSO! That was rather a tragic experience. I am not much of a coffee fan, in fact I try to resist myself from caffeine. I will only consume caffeine when needed, such as during exams, or on a tired morning when I cannot possibly pay attention in lectures. Although a friend of mine, who is currently studying medicine, says that coffee has no major side effects on humans, I still think consuming chemicals are bad. Not only that, coffee is also very addictive!
Anyway, last week was also my mom's birthday! I think she got three birthday cakes this year. I got her a blackforest cake from this chinese bakery. It tasted so good that it took my breath away. My aunt also bought a cake for her, and also the youth from Ottawa also bought her a cake. So I went cake spree last week! The cakes were awesome but I think I did consume too much sugar in a week. =p
I also had a bit of time to hang out with my long lost best friend that I love as my own sister. I was surprised that she would come skating with me and the guys although only for a bit! Then the next day I invited her to come and have lunch with the family since it was my mom's birthday. Although I wish we both could go out and catch up on each other, I was happy to see her happy!
I learned something about happiness last week. I learned that I would never live happy if I keep on thinking about things that depresses me, things that I don't even have, things that are not within my reach. But if I cherish every moments that I live, give thanks to everything that I have, I will be much better off! The first few days of reading week was rather awful. I was thinking of something that was beyond my reach. It was something that God decided to take away from me on purpose so that I could love Him more and depend totally on Him. In fact, I know that God was testing me. He wanted to see if I would follow Him instead of satisfying the desire of my flesh. This was honestly a very challenging test for me. Out of every other things that I have, He must pick this very delicate one, one that was very important to me. It has almost been a year, and I have failed many times. But God never forget to give strengths, to encourage me to keep going, nor he forgets to tell me that He is always there by my side. There are too many things that God is leading me into that I cannot understand right now, but I want to take that road less travelled and follow this path God has chosen for me. It is tough, but He keeps on telling me to trust in Him! He then taught me how to give thanks for the things that I have, things that God has given me such as a loving family, good friends, good times, great health, etc. I noticed that the more I give thanks for what I have, the happier I become. Then, when I made that statement that "I am willing to be willing" to follow God, He took away my burdens and replaced them with a joyful heart. This is the reason why I had a blast during the week! =) God is awesome!!
This year's reading week was just special! Although last year's reading week was also memorable and unforgetable. 8)
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." - Phillippians 4:13
I came back here to Waterloo on Monday morning. It has not even been a day but I feel so homesick already. I miss home, I miss my friends, I miss Toronto!
This year's reading was so awesome. I had a blast last week! I went to Toronto a lot, went skating, ate street hot dogs, walked in the freezing weather at night with a second cup ESPRESSO! That was rather a tragic experience. I am not much of a coffee fan, in fact I try to resist myself from caffeine. I will only consume caffeine when needed, such as during exams, or on a tired morning when I cannot possibly pay attention in lectures. Although a friend of mine, who is currently studying medicine, says that coffee has no major side effects on humans, I still think consuming chemicals are bad. Not only that, coffee is also very addictive!
Anyway, last week was also my mom's birthday! I think she got three birthday cakes this year. I got her a blackforest cake from this chinese bakery. It tasted so good that it took my breath away. My aunt also bought a cake for her, and also the youth from Ottawa also bought her a cake. So I went cake spree last week! The cakes were awesome but I think I did consume too much sugar in a week. =p
I also had a bit of time to hang out with my long lost best friend that I love as my own sister. I was surprised that she would come skating with me and the guys although only for a bit! Then the next day I invited her to come and have lunch with the family since it was my mom's birthday. Although I wish we both could go out and catch up on each other, I was happy to see her happy!
I learned something about happiness last week. I learned that I would never live happy if I keep on thinking about things that depresses me, things that I don't even have, things that are not within my reach. But if I cherish every moments that I live, give thanks to everything that I have, I will be much better off! The first few days of reading week was rather awful. I was thinking of something that was beyond my reach. It was something that God decided to take away from me on purpose so that I could love Him more and depend totally on Him. In fact, I know that God was testing me. He wanted to see if I would follow Him instead of satisfying the desire of my flesh. This was honestly a very challenging test for me. Out of every other things that I have, He must pick this very delicate one, one that was very important to me. It has almost been a year, and I have failed many times. But God never forget to give strengths, to encourage me to keep going, nor he forgets to tell me that He is always there by my side. There are too many things that God is leading me into that I cannot understand right now, but I want to take that road less travelled and follow this path God has chosen for me. It is tough, but He keeps on telling me to trust in Him! He then taught me how to give thanks for the things that I have, things that God has given me such as a loving family, good friends, good times, great health, etc. I noticed that the more I give thanks for what I have, the happier I become. Then, when I made that statement that "I am willing to be willing" to follow God, He took away my burdens and replaced them with a joyful heart. This is the reason why I had a blast during the week! =) God is awesome!!
This year's reading week was just special! Although last year's reading week was also memorable and unforgetable. 8)
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." - Phillippians 4:13
All about my driving habits...
The first thing that you should know about me and driving is that, I am not a big fan of driving nor am I a good driver. It was only by the grace of God (not forgetting a very strict Dad I have) that I have passed my G2 driver's license on the first try. =p
It's almost been a year since I (almost) take over the family car on almost every weekends. My parents are busy doing their church-related things on the weekends, and they would use the two church vans that are parked in my driveway. My other two siblings do not have their license, so the car is passed on to me.
I've noticed that ever since I conquered that G2 road test, I have developed bad driving habits. The common ones are speeding, cut people off, not focus on street lights, get nervous too easily, etc. It seems to me that I have forgotten the good driving habits that my dad had planted to me over the last few years.
The past few weeks, I have been helping my parents with transporting some of the congregation to and from church. It was never that bad until yesterday where I had to pick up three people at two different locations with only 35 minutes before the service starts. I started sweating since I was due back at church 35 minutes later and I knew I was not going to make it. If I wasn't playing the piano that day it would have probably gone much smoother. So I started speeding and was very nervous. Unfortunately, a Sunday morning is not the best way to drive since the road was pretty packed. I never knew this before. I thought canadians would sleep in on Sunday mornings. Anyway, I tried to switch two lanes at once. I double checked that everything was clear, I even blindspotted twice. When I made my move, this black jeep was coming really fast on the third lane I was switching to. It was good that he saw me coming from the other side. Although he decided to tail-gate me for a long while.
After church I was driving with my little brother. I was going to turn right but I did not see the red light in front of me. After I turned, I saw this white lady with her sedan tail-gating me really close. Then I noticed that I took her right of way because I did not see the red light.
Many other things have happened when I drive, and It was only by the grace of God that I never hit anything. I should attempt to get enough sleep at night and not chat when I drive to gain more focus on the road.
As much as I dislike driving, the winter does not help at all. We have a huge driveway at home, so in the winter, we only shoveled the snow enough for the cars to pass through. Sadly, at the end of the driveway, the path is only enough for ONE car to pass through. I am not very good with backing out (yet I am lazy to practice), so I kept on hitting the snow banks when trying to get out of the driveway. Not mentioning the icy roads, and especially the slippery parking lots in the winter!
Last Saturday, my parents and I, with the other youth from church went to Ottawa to minister a Family Altar. It was a very tiring day trip. We left at 7 am, and was back home at midnight. It was already dark when my mom was driving the van home. We were on 401 west, close to Kingston. The road was pretty clear and the weather had been friendly. Then all of a sudden, this vast amount of snow flakes came down right on the windshield, in the direction opposite to where the car was going. The snow was so thick and it kept on pouring right at us that we could not see the we were going. We could not even see the lines on the highway. Thank goodness that the service centre was only 3 km away from where we were, so my mom gently drove us there slowly and we all took a washroom break for a while.
This experience was a winter driving madness nightmare for me. I pray to God and hope that it will never snow that bad when I am driving.
In addition to this winter driving hatred, I would like to state that I love the winter. I love the snow, I love the winter sports, I love the view, etc. But winter and driving just do not make a good combination for me.
Anyways, after all these rants on how much I hate driving, I still it's nice to have my own car and be able to drive anywhere, anytime I want. My decent favourite car has always been the Acura TSX, although my friends think that this car sucks bad. My dream car would be a BMW X5, BMW M3, or the Porsche Boxster is probably the nicest sports car ever invented by men!
Well, just like what my dad always says, do well in school, accomplish a high standard in education, master what you do best at and reach your life goal, then you enjoy a good life for the rest of your life!
Until next time!
ps: The answer for the bonus question from the previous post is "post office." Get it? Post office has millions of letters in it!
It's almost been a year since I (almost) take over the family car on almost every weekends. My parents are busy doing their church-related things on the weekends, and they would use the two church vans that are parked in my driveway. My other two siblings do not have their license, so the car is passed on to me.
I've noticed that ever since I conquered that G2 road test, I have developed bad driving habits. The common ones are speeding, cut people off, not focus on street lights, get nervous too easily, etc. It seems to me that I have forgotten the good driving habits that my dad had planted to me over the last few years.
The past few weeks, I have been helping my parents with transporting some of the congregation to and from church. It was never that bad until yesterday where I had to pick up three people at two different locations with only 35 minutes before the service starts. I started sweating since I was due back at church 35 minutes later and I knew I was not going to make it. If I wasn't playing the piano that day it would have probably gone much smoother. So I started speeding and was very nervous. Unfortunately, a Sunday morning is not the best way to drive since the road was pretty packed. I never knew this before. I thought canadians would sleep in on Sunday mornings. Anyway, I tried to switch two lanes at once. I double checked that everything was clear, I even blindspotted twice. When I made my move, this black jeep was coming really fast on the third lane I was switching to. It was good that he saw me coming from the other side. Although he decided to tail-gate me for a long while.
After church I was driving with my little brother. I was going to turn right but I did not see the red light in front of me. After I turned, I saw this white lady with her sedan tail-gating me really close. Then I noticed that I took her right of way because I did not see the red light.
Many other things have happened when I drive, and It was only by the grace of God that I never hit anything. I should attempt to get enough sleep at night and not chat when I drive to gain more focus on the road.
As much as I dislike driving, the winter does not help at all. We have a huge driveway at home, so in the winter, we only shoveled the snow enough for the cars to pass through. Sadly, at the end of the driveway, the path is only enough for ONE car to pass through. I am not very good with backing out (yet I am lazy to practice), so I kept on hitting the snow banks when trying to get out of the driveway. Not mentioning the icy roads, and especially the slippery parking lots in the winter!
Last Saturday, my parents and I, with the other youth from church went to Ottawa to minister a Family Altar. It was a very tiring day trip. We left at 7 am, and was back home at midnight. It was already dark when my mom was driving the van home. We were on 401 west, close to Kingston. The road was pretty clear and the weather had been friendly. Then all of a sudden, this vast amount of snow flakes came down right on the windshield, in the direction opposite to where the car was going. The snow was so thick and it kept on pouring right at us that we could not see the we were going. We could not even see the lines on the highway. Thank goodness that the service centre was only 3 km away from where we were, so my mom gently drove us there slowly and we all took a washroom break for a while.
This experience was a winter driving madness nightmare for me. I pray to God and hope that it will never snow that bad when I am driving.
In addition to this winter driving hatred, I would like to state that I love the winter. I love the snow, I love the winter sports, I love the view, etc. But winter and driving just do not make a good combination for me.
Anyways, after all these rants on how much I hate driving, I still it's nice to have my own car and be able to drive anywhere, anytime I want. My decent favourite car has always been the Acura TSX, although my friends think that this car sucks bad. My dream car would be a BMW X5, BMW M3, or the Porsche Boxster is probably the nicest sports car ever invented by men!
Well, just like what my dad always says, do well in school, accomplish a high standard in education, master what you do best at and reach your life goal, then you enjoy a good life for the rest of your life!
Until next time!
ps: The answer for the bonus question from the previous post is "post office." Get it? Post office has millions of letters in it!
Friday, February 18, 2005
Reading Week has Started!
I just got back from writing my last term test. Surprisingly, I didn't find it that hard. Although some of the multiple choice questions were a bit tricky. Many times I ended up with 2 choices which seemed like both are true. This made me wish I had more time on my hand to study. My textbook was right in front of me, in my backpack. How I wish I could just stretch out my arm and reach for it!
My professor always throw out two bonus questions just for fun and for us to get 1 more mark. Today's bonus question was rather tricky. It was a riddle that says, "What begins P and ends with E, and has a millions of letters?" That question caught me off guard. I couldn't think of any answers. I don't know if maybe I was just digging it too much that maybe the answer was just in the question itself. I was actually done the exam 20 minutes early, but I wasn't satisfied with the bonus questions. For all I know, this prof always throw out very easy bonus questions. Like one of last year's bonus questions was to draw a line from number 1 to number 2. I mean, even toddlers could do that. So I was just stuck in my seat for the last 20 minutes and still couldn't figure out. Anybody perhaps can help me?
Anyway, I just want to share something funny that newly wed my prof said during the midterm review hour that we had. It is an applied cell biology course, and we were doing an introduction to immunology. A girl in my class raised her hand and said that she needed a confirmation with the handshake relationship between a T-lymphocyte and a B-lymphocyte. My prof tried to explain to her but she didn't get the concept of what the prof was trying to tell her. So, my prof was trying to use the "everyday language" to explain it, and I assume that he was getting frustrated of how to explain it. So, he ranted on and on and he didn't realize that he just said, "It is a very gentle relationship between the two.. and if you grab on to me too tight you won't turn me on." The class went quiet for 1 second, and then everybody just burst in laugh. I could see my prof's face turned many shades of red. Anybody get the joke? What my prof was trying to say is that, if the two cells are connected too tight, then the B-lymphocyte won't be able to get the information that the T-lymphocyte is offering. I thought this was a funny joke =p
So my reading week has started. I can't wait to go home and not come back here for a whole week! I have many things planned for the break, such as to check out the guitar I wanted to much, go ice skating since I haven't had the chance to skate this winter, etc.. etc.. and not forgetting to catch up with my 2-week behind reading!
A lot of my friends are actually going on vacation in such a short break like this. One of my friends is going to Dominican Republic, and others are going to Florida, etc. Well, I just hope that everyone will have a relaxing break before the massive work load comes back to haunt us! As for me, I'm glad that I finished all of my exams before the reading week so I am stress-free!!
Well, this is it. Enjoy your break!
My professor always throw out two bonus questions just for fun and for us to get 1 more mark. Today's bonus question was rather tricky. It was a riddle that says, "What begins P and ends with E, and has a millions of letters?" That question caught me off guard. I couldn't think of any answers. I don't know if maybe I was just digging it too much that maybe the answer was just in the question itself. I was actually done the exam 20 minutes early, but I wasn't satisfied with the bonus questions. For all I know, this prof always throw out very easy bonus questions. Like one of last year's bonus questions was to draw a line from number 1 to number 2. I mean, even toddlers could do that. So I was just stuck in my seat for the last 20 minutes and still couldn't figure out. Anybody perhaps can help me?
Anyway, I just want to share something funny that newly wed my prof said during the midterm review hour that we had. It is an applied cell biology course, and we were doing an introduction to immunology. A girl in my class raised her hand and said that she needed a confirmation with the handshake relationship between a T-lymphocyte and a B-lymphocyte. My prof tried to explain to her but she didn't get the concept of what the prof was trying to tell her. So, my prof was trying to use the "everyday language" to explain it, and I assume that he was getting frustrated of how to explain it. So, he ranted on and on and he didn't realize that he just said, "It is a very gentle relationship between the two.. and if you grab on to me too tight you won't turn me on." The class went quiet for 1 second, and then everybody just burst in laugh. I could see my prof's face turned many shades of red. Anybody get the joke? What my prof was trying to say is that, if the two cells are connected too tight, then the B-lymphocyte won't be able to get the information that the T-lymphocyte is offering. I thought this was a funny joke =p
So my reading week has started. I can't wait to go home and not come back here for a whole week! I have many things planned for the break, such as to check out the guitar I wanted to much, go ice skating since I haven't had the chance to skate this winter, etc.. etc.. and not forgetting to catch up with my 2-week behind reading!
A lot of my friends are actually going on vacation in such a short break like this. One of my friends is going to Dominican Republic, and others are going to Florida, etc. Well, I just hope that everyone will have a relaxing break before the massive work load comes back to haunt us! As for me, I'm glad that I finished all of my exams before the reading week so I am stress-free!!
Well, this is it. Enjoy your break!
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Calculus Mid-term NIGHTMARE!
I just got back from writing my calculus term test. Now let me warn you that I am horrible in math. I tend to memorize things, instead of understand it, taking it by the science approach. I studied until late last night, and got up this morning and was studying until 5 pm, just 30 minutes before the exam. I went through all the chapters and some of the review questions. I was comfortable with all of them, except the last chapter.
I was pretty comfortable and I thought I would do fine as I walked in the 3rd floor exam room. It turned out that the exam was horrible! Even the FIRST question was tricky. On top of the very complicated questions, the exam was rather long for an 80 minutes exam. I knew from the beginning I wasn't able to finish it on time. I guess I wasn't the only one. I barely saw anyone leaving early from there.
I have my last term test tomorrow at 11:30 am. I wasn't planning to write this blog so that I could spend more time studying. But I'm still very upset about the test I just wrote and I guess it knocked down my study mood. I do wish that they would bell curve the exam. It was hard and it was too long for the given time period!
Well, looking at it from the bright side, I only have one more test to go, then it's reading week! Although I have a lot of catching up to do, at least I can finally get out from this basement apartment I live in. This whole place is a mess, and I miss my pink room :)
Anyway, I goin' to try to focus on tomorrow's test and hope that I will ace this one. I heard my prof is trying a new approach in writing his exams. I hope it will be easier than last semester, and I guess I will find that out tomorrow.
Later days!
I was pretty comfortable and I thought I would do fine as I walked in the 3rd floor exam room. It turned out that the exam was horrible! Even the FIRST question was tricky. On top of the very complicated questions, the exam was rather long for an 80 minutes exam. I knew from the beginning I wasn't able to finish it on time. I guess I wasn't the only one. I barely saw anyone leaving early from there.
I have my last term test tomorrow at 11:30 am. I wasn't planning to write this blog so that I could spend more time studying. But I'm still very upset about the test I just wrote and I guess it knocked down my study mood. I do wish that they would bell curve the exam. It was hard and it was too long for the given time period!
Well, looking at it from the bright side, I only have one more test to go, then it's reading week! Although I have a lot of catching up to do, at least I can finally get out from this basement apartment I live in. This whole place is a mess, and I miss my pink room :)
Anyway, I goin' to try to focus on tomorrow's test and hope that I will ace this one. I heard my prof is trying a new approach in writing his exams. I hope it will be easier than last semester, and I guess I will find that out tomorrow.
Later days!
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Talkin' bout skatin' to school!
The weather hasn't been too friendly these past few days, at least not for the city of Waterloo. This morning, I had to "skate" my way to school. Can you imagine that? Actually, monday morning was even worse than today! Come to think about it, it's very ironic that even I haven't had the chance to go ice skating this winter, and yet I had the chance to "skate" on the sidewalks. I wonder why the city didn't call the school of for this kind of day. I think it is way too dangerous for students, especially the younger ones, to walk to school on days like these. It was impossible for us to actually "walk" properly unless we "slide" on the ice. Even winter boots cannot handle this problem. T_T
Anyway, is it just me or is everyone just seem tired today? Indeed, I am very tired today. I was at school since 8:30 am until 5:20 pm. Then, I still had to study for my two midterms coming up tomorrow and friday. It's almost midnight now and I still haven't had the chance to make dinner. I have just been munching on chips and sweets, my study snacks!
By the way I will be busy tomorrow, so more updates will be coming up during reading week! ^-^
Take care!
Anyway, is it just me or is everyone just seem tired today? Indeed, I am very tired today. I was at school since 8:30 am until 5:20 pm. Then, I still had to study for my two midterms coming up tomorrow and friday. It's almost midnight now and I still haven't had the chance to make dinner. I have just been munching on chips and sweets, my study snacks!
By the way I will be busy tomorrow, so more updates will be coming up during reading week! ^-^
Take care!
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Very Busy Week......
This is week is crazy.. I'm going crazy.. The work load is crazy.. hehe.. :p
Well, at least all my term tests are scattered equally, three last week and three this week. The only difference is that last week I was still fresh and up for late-night studying. This week I'm tired due to lack of sleep last week and on the weekend. Also the valentine's day and its hangovers is not helping at all!
The chemistry department at my school always cancel their lab period the week of their midterms. I wonder why the biology profs refused to do that. It would have helped so much since the weekly lab reports and lab drawings, plus lab assignments and quizzes take a lot of time. Imagine I have to deal with those everyweek, and now plus the exams. I am totally behind for 2 weeks. I guess I'll have to use my reading week to actually "read." (-_-")
In physiology, we were doing clinical blood tests like what your physicians do in a normal medical check-up. We were assigned a partner and also an experiment. Since my partner and I are concurrently taking histology, we refused to do white blood cells differential because we have done it so many times. So I picked red blood cells count because I thought it is kind of cool and I have never done it. The gross thing is that, you actually had to suck the blood into the testing tube with your mouth!! So after the gross part was done, we were to dilute the blood in the tube then put a drop on the haematocytometer slide and count the blood cells with the aid of a microscope. My partner was being so selfish that she wouldn't let me try to find the spot where we put the drop of diluted blood. I was fine with it until she kept on saying "I can't find it.. I can't find it." So I told her, "Don't worry I'll find it for you." I'm pretty good with using the microscope and I was sure I would be able to find the tiny spot. However she wouldn't hand me the microscope, so I thought it's okay I will just wait until she is satisfied with it. So she kept on adjusting and adjusting the stage (where we put the slide) up and down trying to focus the image. What happened is that she was turning the knob too fast that the stage actually hit the objective lens and the specialized cover slip broke. Unbelievably, she refused to tell the lab instructor that she broke the cover slip and told me to do it instead. It drove me nuts because I could've helped her find the spot without breaking it only if she would've let me, and now I had to tell the instructor that "we" broke the cover slip? If I were her, I would not use the word "we" because I know I was being selfish and I was to take any blame or charge for it. But God was so nice that my instructor said that we didn't have to pay for anything and to just throw it in the broken glass container.
Anyway, that is pretty much the interesting thing that happen in the day. Other than that I wrote my music appreciation midterm just two hours ago. The format was very unexpected and the exam was rather hard for an elective course. However I think I managed to do pretty well on it, plus the 2 bonus marks for staying for another 1.5 hours of lecture after the exam. :)
Happy belated valentine's day to most of you that I haven't had the chance to say it. I hope you had a good and sweet one.
God bless!
Well, at least all my term tests are scattered equally, three last week and three this week. The only difference is that last week I was still fresh and up for late-night studying. This week I'm tired due to lack of sleep last week and on the weekend. Also the valentine's day and its hangovers is not helping at all!
The chemistry department at my school always cancel their lab period the week of their midterms. I wonder why the biology profs refused to do that. It would have helped so much since the weekly lab reports and lab drawings, plus lab assignments and quizzes take a lot of time. Imagine I have to deal with those everyweek, and now plus the exams. I am totally behind for 2 weeks. I guess I'll have to use my reading week to actually "read." (-_-")
In physiology, we were doing clinical blood tests like what your physicians do in a normal medical check-up. We were assigned a partner and also an experiment. Since my partner and I are concurrently taking histology, we refused to do white blood cells differential because we have done it so many times. So I picked red blood cells count because I thought it is kind of cool and I have never done it. The gross thing is that, you actually had to suck the blood into the testing tube with your mouth!! So after the gross part was done, we were to dilute the blood in the tube then put a drop on the haematocytometer slide and count the blood cells with the aid of a microscope. My partner was being so selfish that she wouldn't let me try to find the spot where we put the drop of diluted blood. I was fine with it until she kept on saying "I can't find it.. I can't find it." So I told her, "Don't worry I'll find it for you." I'm pretty good with using the microscope and I was sure I would be able to find the tiny spot. However she wouldn't hand me the microscope, so I thought it's okay I will just wait until she is satisfied with it. So she kept on adjusting and adjusting the stage (where we put the slide) up and down trying to focus the image. What happened is that she was turning the knob too fast that the stage actually hit the objective lens and the specialized cover slip broke. Unbelievably, she refused to tell the lab instructor that she broke the cover slip and told me to do it instead. It drove me nuts because I could've helped her find the spot without breaking it only if she would've let me, and now I had to tell the instructor that "we" broke the cover slip? If I were her, I would not use the word "we" because I know I was being selfish and I was to take any blame or charge for it. But God was so nice that my instructor said that we didn't have to pay for anything and to just throw it in the broken glass container.
Anyway, that is pretty much the interesting thing that happen in the day. Other than that I wrote my music appreciation midterm just two hours ago. The format was very unexpected and the exam was rather hard for an elective course. However I think I managed to do pretty well on it, plus the 2 bonus marks for staying for another 1.5 hours of lecture after the exam. :)
Happy belated valentine's day to most of you that I haven't had the chance to say it. I hope you had a good and sweet one.
God bless!
Monday, February 14, 2005
It's V-day!! ^-^
Being trapped in a 3-bedroom basement alone in a city where I barely know anybody sure isn't fun at all. Like normal people, I hate mondays! Who doesn't? Mondays are the days where I have 4 lectures, a lab, and a tutorial one after another with no break at all! It is also when I have to wake up at 5:30 in the morning just to drive here. And this valentine's day isn't helping at all. I don't know why v-day has to be on a MONDAY, with the addition of 3 exams I have this week. I guess I was meant to spend this year's valentine's by myself anyway.
Well, I guess if I look at it from the positive-point-of-view side, I am basically 1 week behind in my readings, plus a midterm tomorrow, a movie-dinner date wouldn't be such a great idea after all. Neglecting the fact that I just don't have anyone to spend v-day with this year, this "study" time could be a really good excuse not only for anyone, but also for myself.
Anyway, let's change the topic so I won't go too dramatic about this whole v-day thing, hehe.
A few of my friends have complained saying that my first blog was too long, not "blog-like", and it seems like I was promoting about biology. In fact, I love biology! So why not promote? :p
By the way, Sunday's worship was awesome! This is a statement I haven't said in long while. I am re-learning how to be satisfied with myself and with other people, how to look to God only and not other people, depend on God fully and not other people, etc. I said "re-learning" because I have accomplished many things that I didn't hold on to. I learned, and let go. I don't even remember how it felt and how stupid I was to let go of God. My friends, that is something you will never ever want to do. Trust me, to get back to where you were in your level of Christianity, or just simply to get back to God you used to is much much harder. I have to restrain myself from MANY things. I have developed different habits, different way of thinking, not letting God decide what to do, let my logical mind do the work, etc. I was surprised when God gave me a flashback of how it was compare to what I am today. But the wonderful thing about Jesus is that He was always there. When I didn't care about Him, He still cared about me. When I forgot about Him, He was still there calling me back. I couldn't help myself but cry knowing this.
Maybe another day I will share about what happened. But that is for another blog because right now I have to "skate" my way to school, hehe.
Happy Valentine's day everyone! Like Nat, one of the singers at my church, said, "Everyday should be V-day, not just today!" It is true, love one another whenever and where ever you are. Easier said than done, but hehe.. try your best!
Well, I guess if I look at it from the positive-point-of-view side, I am basically 1 week behind in my readings, plus a midterm tomorrow, a movie-dinner date wouldn't be such a great idea after all. Neglecting the fact that I just don't have anyone to spend v-day with this year, this "study" time could be a really good excuse not only for anyone, but also for myself.
Anyway, let's change the topic so I won't go too dramatic about this whole v-day thing, hehe.
A few of my friends have complained saying that my first blog was too long, not "blog-like", and it seems like I was promoting about biology. In fact, I love biology! So why not promote? :p
By the way, Sunday's worship was awesome! This is a statement I haven't said in long while. I am re-learning how to be satisfied with myself and with other people, how to look to God only and not other people, depend on God fully and not other people, etc. I said "re-learning" because I have accomplished many things that I didn't hold on to. I learned, and let go. I don't even remember how it felt and how stupid I was to let go of God. My friends, that is something you will never ever want to do. Trust me, to get back to where you were in your level of Christianity, or just simply to get back to God you used to is much much harder. I have to restrain myself from MANY things. I have developed different habits, different way of thinking, not letting God decide what to do, let my logical mind do the work, etc. I was surprised when God gave me a flashback of how it was compare to what I am today. But the wonderful thing about Jesus is that He was always there. When I didn't care about Him, He still cared about me. When I forgot about Him, He was still there calling me back. I couldn't help myself but cry knowing this.
Maybe another day I will share about what happened. But that is for another blog because right now I have to "skate" my way to school, hehe.
Happy Valentine's day everyone! Like Nat, one of the singers at my church, said, "Everyday should be V-day, not just today!" It is true, love one another whenever and where ever you are. Easier said than done, but hehe.. try your best!
Thursday, February 10, 2005
My First Blog..
I don't usually publish my blog to the public, however I thought of the need of a healthy journal. What I meant by a healthy journal is, I want to keep my thoughts open to reality.
Often in my personal diary I write melancholy things, especially unfortunate moments that I experience during the day. The purpose of a journal is to let your emotions out on paper so that you don't need to keep it tucked in the chambers of your heart. Sadly, for many people (mostly ladies), the journal is used not to let go of the sad emotions, but rather to try to keep those emotions with them. Instead of letting go, they hold on even tighter with a reason that they simply don't want to let it go. For me unfortunately, I like to hold on to those melancholy emotions because I want to keep the good memories and remember it whenever and where ever I am. That is very sad because in life I have to learn to let go and move on.
Another purpose of this blog is that ever since I pursue Science, I don't encounter many projects that require writing an essay other than writing lab reports and sometimes an article. Frankly when I was in grade 10, I found out that writing was my weakest skill whereas music was my strongest one. So I do hope that by writing this so-called "healthy journal" I can improve my creativity in writing.
I am very excited and proud to announce that my cell biology class will be releasing a newspaper based on cell biology in local, national and international. My group will be doing a local research based on a genetic disorder in the heart of the tri-city (Kitchener-Waterloo-Cambridge). It is called a conversion disorder and it caught my attention right away since there are only FOUR people in the world that has it and THREE of them live in Cambridge. How amazing is that? This newspaper will be released sometime in March altogether with The Cord (the campus's newspaper). Our newspaper will be titled "The Cellulae" and it will be read by the student body on campus. This will be my first published article, although maybe it isn't officially-published (not sure how this thing works). But I hope it will be the start of the career I might pursue later on in the biomedical field.
Anyway, if any of you are wondering about the title of this blog, "The Long Journey of a Stem Cell," it's actually a phrase of encouragement that keeps me going in my studies. A stem cell is what you would call a "baby cell" and it can differentiate into many other types of specialized mature cells, i.e. neurons (nerve cells), cardiac cells, etc. These cells then work together as an organ with other specialized cells to contribute to one or more of the bodily functions. The message is that, you have a long journey ahead of you no matter how old you are right now. The goal is always to reach your maximum ability in the field of your own preference where your skills are optimum.
I know this is a very long first entry, but bare with me because I'm still excited about writing a public blog and stuff. Before I conclude, check out today's newspaper! I was reading the Toronto Star this morning before lecture and I was surprised to find out that the U of T research team discovered that the Wharton's jelly of a newborn umbillical cord can be quite useful. Back to the "stem cell" discussion, the Wharton's jelly is full of stem cells (considering it originates in a newborn). Shame on me, when I was studying the Wharton's jelly in histology last year I did not really pay attention to them as they are only young cells. Who knows they have really high potentials! They hope to use these stem cells to help people that need any kinds of transplants, etc. I am thinking that they might be able to culture the stem cells in vitro and turn it into the needed mature cells. Well, a report will be published sometime this week on this topic. This is a very exciting discovery!!
Lastly, this has taken much of my sleeping and studying time, especially have two midterms in two days. So I will end it now!
Enjoy!
Often in my personal diary I write melancholy things, especially unfortunate moments that I experience during the day. The purpose of a journal is to let your emotions out on paper so that you don't need to keep it tucked in the chambers of your heart. Sadly, for many people (mostly ladies), the journal is used not to let go of the sad emotions, but rather to try to keep those emotions with them. Instead of letting go, they hold on even tighter with a reason that they simply don't want to let it go. For me unfortunately, I like to hold on to those melancholy emotions because I want to keep the good memories and remember it whenever and where ever I am. That is very sad because in life I have to learn to let go and move on.
Another purpose of this blog is that ever since I pursue Science, I don't encounter many projects that require writing an essay other than writing lab reports and sometimes an article. Frankly when I was in grade 10, I found out that writing was my weakest skill whereas music was my strongest one. So I do hope that by writing this so-called "healthy journal" I can improve my creativity in writing.
I am very excited and proud to announce that my cell biology class will be releasing a newspaper based on cell biology in local, national and international. My group will be doing a local research based on a genetic disorder in the heart of the tri-city (Kitchener-Waterloo-Cambridge). It is called a conversion disorder and it caught my attention right away since there are only FOUR people in the world that has it and THREE of them live in Cambridge. How amazing is that? This newspaper will be released sometime in March altogether with The Cord (the campus's newspaper). Our newspaper will be titled "The Cellulae" and it will be read by the student body on campus. This will be my first published article, although maybe it isn't officially-published (not sure how this thing works). But I hope it will be the start of the career I might pursue later on in the biomedical field.
Anyway, if any of you are wondering about the title of this blog, "The Long Journey of a Stem Cell," it's actually a phrase of encouragement that keeps me going in my studies. A stem cell is what you would call a "baby cell" and it can differentiate into many other types of specialized mature cells, i.e. neurons (nerve cells), cardiac cells, etc. These cells then work together as an organ with other specialized cells to contribute to one or more of the bodily functions. The message is that, you have a long journey ahead of you no matter how old you are right now. The goal is always to reach your maximum ability in the field of your own preference where your skills are optimum.
I know this is a very long first entry, but bare with me because I'm still excited about writing a public blog and stuff. Before I conclude, check out today's newspaper! I was reading the Toronto Star this morning before lecture and I was surprised to find out that the U of T research team discovered that the Wharton's jelly of a newborn umbillical cord can be quite useful. Back to the "stem cell" discussion, the Wharton's jelly is full of stem cells (considering it originates in a newborn). Shame on me, when I was studying the Wharton's jelly in histology last year I did not really pay attention to them as they are only young cells. Who knows they have really high potentials! They hope to use these stem cells to help people that need any kinds of transplants, etc. I am thinking that they might be able to culture the stem cells in vitro and turn it into the needed mature cells. Well, a report will be published sometime this week on this topic. This is a very exciting discovery!!
Lastly, this has taken much of my sleeping and studying time, especially have two midterms in two days. So I will end it now!
Enjoy!
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