Can't focus..

Aiyaa.. I'm having such a hard time to focus the past couple of days. I've been working on this microbiology paper, my last paper of the year, for two straight days now and I'm not even half done!! I've been procrastinating like there's no tomorrow! Haha..

Well, I'm writing a paper on temperature adaptation of microbes in a freshwater aquatic community. The water sample is obtained from a pond at Waterloo park! =p Most people probably know what I'm talking about. Well, anyway, this paper is pretty much based on a 3-month research project. It's so depressing because I do not like my results! Haha! =p It's very unexpected, and very hard to explain why it was like that! *sigh*

Anyway, I better get back to it!

Wishing everyone the best with their exams!

LCCF

I went to LCCF (Laurier Chinese Christian Fellowship) for the first time in a long time today. I wanted to go last week, but I ended up studying because I was behind in my courses. But, today I went even though it was raining. ;)

It turned out to be really fun. It started awkward at first, because the first few people that showed up early barely said hi or even talked to me. But, not too long after, other people started coming in and they started talking to me and we started to get to know each other. We sang a few songs, most of them I knew, then we had a Bible study. We divided ourselves up into four smaller groups.

Our topic today was about spiritual gifts. We talked about what spiritual gifts are and examples of them. We even had discussions about if spiritual gifts and talents are two different things. We also brainstormed ideas of how to use these spiritual gifts to reach out to the community, especially around our campus.

Anyway, I wanted to share my opinions with my group members, but I was really shy today. I don't know why. I really wanted to just speak up and share with them what I think, because everybody was really quiet. But, I don't know why I got really shy and barely said anything. Although in the end, I gathered up some courage to say a little bit of what I wanted to say. Maybe I'm just not used to being in a room full of Asian people.. anymore! =p Or maybe I kind of felt out place at first because usually the places I've been where it involves church are among Indonesians or Canadians. But, as always, being in a room full of believes keep me happy. I honestly enjoyed the meeting to the fullest.

Although I wish that the other people would be more friendly towards the new comer, but I'm definitely coming back. I've never really enjoyed my University life to the fullest, and I think now is the time to do that before it's too late. DOH! I'm in my last year of University! =p

This is it for tonight. I'm hittin' the sack.. right now! =)

ps. Do you notice I've been using a lot of smiley faces? Haha.. that's how happy I am right now. So now you know why I love going to church so much! *wink*

Crying..

I'm warning you.. don't read this post..

I feel like crying right now.. Bad things happen to good people.. why? Sometimes all you want to do is help.. but you end up in a bad situation..

So many things happen to me today.. I know it's thanksgiving day and all.. I just want to be happy.. and be thankful with everything.. but I guess things happen.. for a reason.. I don't know...

I always blame myself for things that I didn't do.. I blame myself when I see the people I love get hurt.. "I shouldn't have done this.. I shouldn't have gone here.. I should've stayed.. I should've.. I should've..." I blame myself when other ppl get hurt..

My brother yelled at me today to stop taking crap from people. A lot of people hurt me without knowing that they're hurting me.. That is because most of the times I don't say anything.. I just take the "crap" just like what my brother would say. I don't like to argue with people.. unless it's a healthy argument, then I'd argue.. but if it's an argument to find out who's wrong and who's right, I don't bother.. I know that it's wrong.. but I don't like arguing with people.. it'll end up hurting me more.. 'cuz I don't like to blame ppl.. I don't like to see other ppl get hurt..

But I guess ppl like to take advantage of this.. Last time I said it on facebook, "I'm nice, don't abuse it" I actually meant that!

But it's okay.. in everything.. in every condition, I just want to give thanks. Especially on thanksgiving day. So really, I shouldn't be complaining at all. I guess I just needed some place to rant..

Anyway, if you end up down here, I already told you not to read..

Dining Etiquette Advantage

Like ordinary people, I hate Mondays. It is actually one of my longest days of the week this semester. I have a 4 hours research laboratory that sometimes get extended to 4.5 hours or even more. But today, was exceptional! =)

After my 4 hours lab, which my partner missed, and I ended up doing all the work alone, I attended this session at my school called Dining Etiquette Advantage. For $10, I enjoyed a 4-course meal and a lesson on manners for dining at a business interview level. So, what was on the menu? For $10, I would expect cheap things, probably food coming from the school's dining hall. But I guessed wrong! The food was exceptionally good! I didn't know that the chefs at our school can do that! LOL!

So, back to the question earlier. What was on the menu? For appetizers, we had a cream of tomato soup with sour cream and parsley, and a plate of greens with dressing ( I assume it was Italian). As for the main course, we had chicken with white creamy sauce, a scoop of mashed potato, and mixed vegetables (red peppers, cauliflowers, carrots, and zucchini). Guess what we had for dessert? CAPPUCCINO CHEESECAKE! =p That was unexpected!! I probably wouldn't complain if they served us chocolate cakes from Betty Crocker! =p The cheesecake had a thick layer of cappuccino mousse was very delightful. Topped with cocoa powder, whipped cream, a piece of chocolate, a strawberry and caramel sauce, it made an excellent dessert, one that would make me crave for more! In fact, my roommate is now nagging me to bake her a cheesecake! Not only her, but my church friends too! You guys gotta start paying me for these cheesecakes, because the materials are not cheap at all! Haha.. j/k guys!

Anyway, let's get back to dining etiquette. When you are at a lunch or dinner interview, be selective of what you order. It is important to follow your host's instructions of where to seat and what to order in terms of food, drinks, and price range. If your host does not order an appetizer, do not order an appetizer. Do not order the most expensive food on the menu unless your host recommends it for you. Do not order an alcoholic beverage unless your host insists for you to order one. Even so, do not order more than one. In terms of food, order something that you would be comfortable eating. Do not order food that is tricky to eat, such as chicken wings or seafood, and food that is messy, such as ribs. If your host does not order a dessert, then do not order a dessert. If you need to fulfill your sugar needs, go visit Dairy Queen after the meeting.

We were also taught on how to use multiple utensils. Always go from outside to inside. So, use utensils that are farthest away from your plate first. Glasses should be on your right side, and bread plate is on your left side. Do not take glasses or plates that do not belong to you. At a table, especially a round table, sometimes it can get confusing as to which plates or glasses belong to whom because there are just so many. If you need to get the salt and pepper or bread and butter, do not get up from your seat and reach for them. Ask someone that sits closest to the salt and pepper to pass it to you. Passing flow should always be to your left, although this is rule is often bypassed. Usually the host determines the passing flow. If he starts passing to the right, then everybody should follow and pass things to your right side. This is something that I've never heard before, but you should always pass the salt and pepper TOGETHER, even if the person only requested for one of them. When you are finished with your meal, always put the utensil down at four o'clock. That way, the server will know that you are finished and will take away your plate. Always leave the utensils on the plate; do not put utensils that have been in your mouth back on the tablecloth. If you are eating dessert and you still have multiple utensils on your left and right side, then people will know right away that you do not know the proper dining manners.

When eating, place the cloth napkin on your lap, and it should never leave your lap when you are still eating. If you have to excuse yourself to the bathroom, put your napkin on the table beside your plate, or place them on the back or the handle of your chair. Do not put it on the chair because you will use that cloth to wipe your mouth!

Another interesting fact that I never get to know about until tonight. When eating soup, you should scoop the soup using the spoon away from you, not towards you. The reason for this is that, if you scoop it towards you it makes it seem like you are starving and want to finish it as soon as possible. But if you scoop it away from you, you seem more relax and give the impression that you are not a barbarian! =p Even when you are trying to scoop the last bit of soup in your bowl, tilt the bowl away from you, not towards you. Interesting, huh? =)

Now let's talk about the drinks. Drinks are always placed on your right side. When drinking wine, order just as the way you like it. You do not have to follow the rule that you should drink white wine when you are eating chicken, and red wine when you are eating red meat. Just order the way you like it. When drinking red wine, always hold bottom part of the bowl of your flute glass. The reason for this is, the heat from your hand will help warm the wine and it will make the taste better. For white wine, you want to hold the stem of the flute glass because white wines are better when it is chilled. The same rule goes for water glasses, always hold the stem of your glass.

Lastly, always ALWAYS cut food into bite-size pieces before you pick them up with your utensils to put in your mouth. Do not be messy when eating! For dinner rolls, break the bread with your hands small enough for one bite, and add the butter on that small piece. So, do not cut the roll in half and apply butter to all sides, and then break into small pieces. Also, hold your utensils as delicate as possible with your hands. Do not hold a steak knife as if you are holding a butcher knife! =p

Other rules include basic table manners. Chew with your mouth closed, do not talk with food in your mouth, no elbows on the table, guys should sit straight up with both legs flat on the floor, girls may cross their legs if they want to, etc.

I think the session was very informative and I enjoyed it. The people at my table were also very funny. I think we had the loudest table in that whole room. We were actually laughing our stomachs out and tell each other funny and embarrassing stories! Other tables talk, but they make it seem so formal! LOL! Our table, even though we just met each other, we just talk and laugh, of course still following the rules of manners and stuff. We made fun of each other when someone accidentally drop food on the floor, or on the table. One of the girls at our table wanted to pick up a zucchini using her forks, but it accidentally slipped and flew out of her plate. Francoise (the only guy at our table) and I actually saw the incident and we just started bursting into laughters! LOL! It's just that, we were trying REALLY hard to use the skills that we were just taught. Everyone was eating so politely, using the utensils properly and hand gestures. We were eating slowly, and not rushing like we haven't eaten in days. Although everyone was actually starving because we started eating at around 7 PM, and everyone came to the session right after their classes and haven't had anything since lunch. One of us actually didn't have time to eat lunch and only ate an orange. So everyone was STARVING, but we still managed to practice the dining etiquette and our keep our manners. Although we were laughing like crazy simultaneously as something funny always come up. But even though we were so formal with eating, we kept our conversation casual. We talked around school and everyone's daily things.

One of the funny things is that, we only had one man at our table, so we made him our host. In general, the guys always eat faster than the girls. But we were taught to try to keep our eating pace with everybody else. So, he actually had to put down his utensils for a few minutes and pretended to talk while waiting for the girls to munch on their meals! =p

Anyway, that's it for tonight because I'm getting really tired. I had four parties over the weekend, not including church activities! So I'm pretty drained right now. And because I didn't study at all on the weekend, I have to try to catch up with things tomorrow! *sigh* I am not even done marking BI100 assignments and I have to hand it back to my students on Wednesday! >
For those of you that actually take time to read this, I hope that it has been an informative update for you. I apologize if things are not in order and kind of all over the place. It's pretty late and I just write things as I remember them!

See ya later, Alligator!

I miss dancing...

I miss dancing.. =( =( =( =( =( =(

Rant...

Hmm.. I'm at a crossroad, and I don't know which path to take...

If I try to reason with myself, I know which path is the right one. I actually know which path is the safest one. I'm a safe person and I hate taking risk. But this other path, the one that seems a little unsafe.. somehow my heart tells me that it's worth taking the risk. Even if I get hurt in the end by taking the risk, everybody learn from their mistakes. But, one thing, I'm afraid to get hurt. I've gotten hurt in the past and now I'm a little (or much more) cautious about it. I'm scared that if I let go of my heart to go with it, I'd be disappointed in the end. A small part of my heart wants to take the safe way, but a bigger part of my heart doesn't want to let go of the other. In fact, I realized that I'm scared to lose it.

...

Is love really blind? ... or what?

Falling asleep @ Library

Plant Anatomy final exam! GAAAHH, the MOST boring biology course ever!! Why did I take it? Arrrggghh o.O! Perhaps I need it to graduate! =( I have NO interest in plants whatsoever!!!

Even though I'm at the library, I cannot concentrate. It's too damn boring and I'm falling asleep. Why do I need to learn about the structure of plants? Why? ='( *sniffles* I so want to go home and nap! =(

Two more exams to go. My back and legs are still hurting too! o.O"

Oh, did I mention I got a lot of new clothes from my cousins back in Indo? Hehe.. I'm wearing one of them right now. My friend said I look like a Korean wearing this Asian-style shirt! =p Coolio..

Alright, done procrastinating.. back to "Leaf Histology" ... o.O!!!!!!

Back pain....

Dragonboat season is hereeeee.. YAY!! ^^

Anyway, I went to my first on-water practice yesterday. It was so much fun, although we really didn't do much because there were a lot of newbies on the boat. It kind of reminds me of last year when I was the only newbee on the boat. But now, owww, my back hurts! o.O" I can't even bend over my body as if to pick up something on the floor! =p It hurts when I brush my teeth! It even hurts when I sleep!!! HAHAHA! XD

And yesterday, for the first time, MY PARTNER WAS ANTON!! And I personally witnessed how he splashed the girl that was paddling in front of him! tsk tsk tsk.. anton!! =p

I really want to get my own life jacket, but they're so expensive! =( I gotta save.. save.. and I'm still upset over the fact that I can't come to practice this Sunday and all the other Sunday practices to come! =(

I don't know why I love dragonboating so much. Maybe it's because I love to play in the water, or with the water. I'd even love to play in the rain! =p

Alright, that's it from me for today. I gotta go back to studying. I'm back home since last night, and it's been so hard to concentrate on studying whenever I'm at home.

Oh, one more thing. My dad just came back from Jakarta, and he bought us a lot of Nutri-jell with different flavours. One of my favourite dessert! ^^ He bought new flavours such as melon and guava. I tried guava today, and OMG it was so good. The whole house smells like guava now!!!! Hehe..

Okays, now it's for real.. I gotta go back to studying! Later!

My sweet parents.. =)

I love sweet-talks! But don't get the wrong idea here okay. =p But, even simple phrases like "I love you," "I miss you," etc can really make my day.

Unfortunately, I noticed that Indonesians, especially those with Chinese backgrounds, don't usually express those words unless absolutely necessary. I don't know if it's because of pride or they just don't know how to express feelings, or they just assume that the significant others should know they feel, etc.

Fortunately, it isn't like that in our family. I have to admit that we were once like that. I used to be shy or embarrassed letting my parents know that I love them or that I miss them. However, when my dad was still a lawyer back in Jakarta, he only came to visit us in Canada once every 3 - 4 months. I realized that this experience only drew us closer together as a family, because when he came to visit us, I could really feel that I missed his presence all these times, and I knew that he felt the same way. And whenever he had to go back to Jakarta, I remembered that all of us would drive to the airport together to send him off. I remembered how I used to hide my tears because I didn't want him to go back.

So, the past few years, I've gathered the courage to say things like, "I miss you, when will you be back?" Although we normally talked through SMS when he's back in Indo (my friends once called me the "high-tech" family 'cuz my dad used to have an extra cell phone exclusively used to text-msg us here =p). He would text-msg me daily asking if I've eaten, if I've gone home, how was school, etc.

Anyway, to cut things short, I was studying at Tim Hortons 2-nights ago with my roommate and another friend. All of a sudden, I received a text-message from my mom saying, "Farah & Otte (My lil' brother), daddy mamie kangen sm kalian, kapan ada waktu utk dikunjungi? ....." And I was just got a little teary because I haven't seen them in so long. My Dad just arrived from Jakarta last Saturday and I couldn't go back last weekend due to exams. That simple message, made me smile even though I was stressed out studying for my exams. =)

I luv my sweet family! <3

Exams.. EXAMS!

I think I'm going crazy! I hate thermodynamics, I can't seem to understand it well. I've been working on the assigned questions in the back of the textbook and it took me on average THREE trials to get to the right answer! Right now I can check if my answer is right or wrong. But on the exam, how am I supposed to know if my answer is wrong? ^$#@&Y%@^$^^%@%$#@%#@

Although we are allowed to bring 6-pages cheat sheet, but it's no use if I don't understand it. Problem solving questions are my problems ever since I was in grade school. I probably don't read the question well, so that's why I don't understand what the question is really asking, and hence the wrong answer! T___T

Alright, gotta keep practicing those questions.

Later dayz!

New Addiction: Fancy Beverages...

Lately I've been in the mood where I actually want to try new things. Just for basic information about me, I don't usually like to try new things. Especially when it comes to food/drinks, I tend to order or make food/drinks that I know I like. I don't usually like risking ordering/making something that I might not like.

However, the past few weeks I've been ordering stuff that I never dared to order before. Can you believe that I've NEVER tried chamomile tea in my whole life until 5 months ago? And I considered myself a tea-lover?? T_T So, I finally did and it turned out to be okay. I,then, started to try other teas that Tim Hortons have on their counter! =p

Last week, my friends and I went to a handmade chocolate stores. Their chocolates were very nice and rather expensive, so I didn't buy any chocolates there. Instead, I was attracted to their tea collections. They had fancy flavoured teas like Strawberry Vanilla, Rum Vanilla, Orange Fountain, etc. I was so attracted to them and decided to buy. Since I wasn't sure if I will like it or not, I only bought 1 tea bag per flavour instead of buying a box for each flavours. They were only 50 cents each, and I bought four of them. This morning, I brewed the Strawberry Vanilla one, and OMG they had a very tempting fragrance! LOL. They didn't taste bad either. I could smell both the strawberry and vanilla, although I'm not so sure if I could taste the strawberry. But maybe it was because I brewed it plainly with water. You should check out their website (www.island-rose.com), and they have a few recipes there to make it into a fancy beverage.

I also started to love alcoholic beverages! I know I like those drinks, so I always try to limit myself, and I actually NEVER bought those things at a store unless for a friend's birthday or other special occasions. I'm so afraid of turning into an alcoholic and that's why I try to stay away from them. But, my friend, Monica *wink*wink*, decided to take me to LCBO and took a look around. And we both ended up buying liquor. I bought Baileys because I know my mom likes it. The next day (OMG the next day!! lol =p), I was waiting for a friend at Union Station and I bought coconut Malibu. *sigh* But, the limit still goes on though. I don't drink more than 1 glass/bottle/pint at any one time. Please, please, please, I don't want to be an alcoholic!!! T___T

Actually, last Friday at Salsa night, I broke the rule! o.O I drank two shots! Oh nooo -_-! Funny thing is, there's a guy that wanted to buy me a drink. But, when he gave me my drink, he was actually afraid that I was underage. HAHAHA! I admit that I look like a high-schooler, but I'm way past 19! =p

Okay, enough procrastination. Back to studying!

Procrastinating..

Aaahh.. I'm procrastinating like crazy!! o.O! My exams start on Friday, but if I don't get going with studying now, I'm not gonna make it through all those chapters and reviews. =( Summer is just 12 days away, and it's just soooo hard to focus! =(

I'm supposed to have dragonboat's first on-water practice this Sunday. I doubt I can make it though. I have so much to study for! =(

For all my University/College friends, I wish u the best with your exams!

Salsa Dancing!

I think I'm getting a little addicted to dancing lately. I've finally finished a whole semester of Latin Ballroom, although I only took the one offered on Campus. Mainly because it was cheaper, and since I haven't been dancing since I was 12, I wanted to find out if I can re-discover that love for dancing I had when I was small. It turned out that I still loved dancing.

Friday night on Good Friday, my friend took me to Acrobat Lounge. It was quite a fancy place with wood floor, but on Friday nights they pushed all the tables to the side and the restaurant turned into a big dance floor. Friday nights are known as the salsa night for this place, so people came to dance Salsa, Merengue, Bachata, etc. I've never been clubbing at all, so this would be my first clubbing experience, although it wasn't really a club. But, I must say, even though I knew nothing about Salsa before, I learned so much that night because so many guys volunteered to dance with me even though they knew it was my first time to dance Salsa! =p

I must say, again, that girls are at an advantage in this type of case because guys are always looking for girls to dance with. Since usually the guys ask, that means the guy must be confident enough to prove that he can dance. I danced with a few good dancers and some guys that couldn't really keep up with the beat. If I was a good dancer, I could just say "no" to those guys that couldn't really dance. (But of course I'm always too nice to do that, right? *wink* =p) So, in the end, it's harder for guys to learn and be good at it because all the good girl dancers only want to dance with the good guy dancers, y'know what I mean? Whereas the girl, like me, for example, I get to dance with a lot of REALLY GOOD guy dancers simply because they asked. In partner dancing, the guys always lead, that's why they must be pretty good and at least able to keep up with the beat.

A friend of mine, a guy, came with me. And poor thing, he didn't dance at all! =p He got through the lesson, and I danced with him for a song. He couldn't ask girls to dance with him because he didn't know how to dance. Since he has to lead the girl, he should at least know the steps and a few tricks. Girls are usually just being pulled around, here and there, and we just have to learn to follow and learn the signs and gestures given by the guys.

Well, all in all, I had such a great night that I wanted to come back! =) So many guys offered to buy me drinks, but I started rejecting the offers after I had 2 shots. It was over my limit! I don't EVER want to be a drink addict, so I limit myself to 1 shot, or 1 bottle, or just one of anything per drinking time. Also, my friend told me that I shouldn't drink if I want to salsa dance because then I'll get dizzy easily. I guess she was right! =(

At the end of the night my head was spinning and I was hiding behind the tables so that guys wouldn't ask me to dance anymore. But, still a guy asked me to dance with him, and he even taught me to dance Argentine Tango! LOL =p I didn't want to dance, at first, because I felt dizzy. But he promised that he'd go easy on me on the spinning. But, salsa is all about spinning, so we couldn't help ourselves but spin, spin, and spin. Good thing he was such a fun guy, so I still had fun even with my spinning head!

Well, I'm busy with exams for the next 3 weeks so I probably won't be dancing until the end of the month! =( I'll for sure miss it, but I'll soon be back on the dance floor! =D

Anybody wanna join me? ;p

Laurier Dance Open House!

I had such a blast this past weekend. I pretty much spent all weekend playing and dancing for the show. Well, the weekend ended with a big dance show inside the gym of my campus. The show was REALLY fun to watch. It was full of jokes, humours, funny dances, funny comments, etc. We even had "Dancing with the Stars" featuring four Laurier profs, each paired up with one of the finest dance instructor from Laurier. It was extremely FUN to watch because the profs knew they couldn't really pull off the routine, so they joked around as they danced.

They were all kinds of dances ranging from ballet, tap dance, jazz/contemporary, hip hop, ballroom, etc. I was in the Latin Ballroom group and we danced merengue, cha-cha, samba, and mambo. I had so much fun while dancing that I didn't even care that hundreds of people were watching and just danced! In our grand finale dance, the mambo, we formed a circle and the boys get to lift up the girls and walk around in circle. Trust me, in practice we ALWAYS screw up this part! =p But amazingly, we didn't screw up in the real show! HAHA! And another thing, I almost pulled my thigh muscle when my partner dipped me. o.O" Well, I wanted to raise my left leg high in the air as I dip, but in practice I've never pulled any leg muscles doing that. But, good thing everything turned out fine! =)

Next thing, I wanna learn how to Salsa. Anybody want to learn with me? ;)

What I learned at Church yesterday..

Part of the sermon yesterday kind of hit me hard in the heart. If I've been pretty selfish lately, I'm very sorry for that. This scriptures did remind me a lot of what I should've been as a Christian. I know it might sound a little harsh, but.. here goes:

"When you follow the desires of your sinful nature, your lives will produce these evil results: sexual immorality, impure thoughts, eagerness for lustful pleasure, idolatry, participation in demonic activities, hostility, quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish ambition, divisions, the feeling that everyone is wrong except those in your own little group, envy, drunkenness, wild parties, and other kinds of sin. Let me tell you again, as I have before, that anyone living that sort of life will NOT inherit the Kingdom of God." (Galatians 6:19-21, NLT)

But, as children of God, we all should have these characters that I will list soon instead. These are the famous nine fruits of the spirit. I've known them since I was still in grade school, and I can't believe that I still have to be reminded about it.

"But when the Holy Spirit controls our lives, he will produce this kind of fruit in us: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Here there is no conflict with the law." (Galatians 6:22-23, NLT)

Moreover,

"Those who belong to CHRIST JESUS have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to his cross and crucified them there. If we are living now by the Holy Spirit, let us follow the Holy Spirit's leading in every part of our lives. Let us not become conceited, or irritate one another, or be jealous of one another." (Galatians 6:24-26, NLT)

Well, I hope this may bless others as it has blessed me abundantly.

Enough with the scriptures, now I want to tell you about my weekend. =p Well, nothing exciting actually. I spent the weekend to do a special project for my grandma's 80th birthday. She's the only grandparent I have left. All the kids, grandkids, great grandkids in Indo are preparing for her 80th birthday party. What is awesome is that, she does not know that it'll be a huge party. She thought it'd be like the usual, just family members celebrating at a fancy restaurant. But for this year, we have rented a ballroom in a hotel and have invited kazillion guests (ok, maybe i'm exaggerating about the guests, but they invited A LOT =p). It'll be so huge that everyone will be wearing uniforms. I know that the sons will be wearing suits with pink shirts underneath, because that's what my dad will be wearing. The daughters will be wearing dresses in the same colour too (I think they actually pre-ordered the dresses). The grandsons will be wearing suits with another colour of shirt, and the granddaughters will be wearing dresses of the same colour. Also the great grandchildren. It's like a wedding party, but it'll be even greater.

It's a shame that my mom, my brothers and I cannot attend this event. Only my dad will attend. Well, my brothers and I have exams in 2 weeks or so, and we tried to convince my grandma to delay the party until the end of April, but she refused because she had invited all her friends. =( But it's okay.. I'm still a little upset, but I'll get over it soon.

Anyway, on Friday I printed out over 200 pictures from my computer and I put them all in a really sweet-looking photo album. =) I gave comments to a lot of the pictures too!! =p I hope that my grandma will like it a lot because she hasn't seen us in a while. Well, I just went back two years ago. But my youngest brother hasn't gone back to Indo for almost 9 years now, and my older brother for 6 or 7 years. It's crazy, I know.

We also videotaped everyone saying happy birthday and things like that so that she can watch us! =) Well I was actually kind of embarrassed about the videotaping thing, because they will show the video at the party with hundreds of guests watching. o.O" But it's okay, I probably won't know anybody there except my family.

So, my dad went back to Indo last night after dropping off me and my brother at our rez in Waterloo. Even though he wasn't done packing, but he insisted on dropping us off. Aww.. make me miss him even more.

My brother also went to Buffalo on the weekend. And guess what? He bought me a Burberry scarf with matching gloves!!!! =) So nice! ^-^

Alright.. this is it for now, I've got much work to do!

L8er!

Update

It's been a while since I last blogged. The last two entries aren't considered as blog entries, I guess. =p But, I was really busy, so I thought I'd post something.

Well, I'm still really busy because this semester is ending in 1.5 weeks! It's crazy that all assignments must be turned in, etc. I finally finished ALL my midterms last week.

Today is my friend's birthday. My roommate and I threw a surprise party for her last night at our apartment. We started at 10 pm, ended at 3:30 pm. I was VERY tired, considering there were a lot of dishes to do. But my roommate volunteered to do the pile-up dishes because I had a class this morning at 8:30 am.

So, for the party, we made a lot of food. For our late dinner we cooked noodles (i-fumie) and soup ala my dad's style. =p For snacks we had konyaku (Japanese jell-o that I don't know how to spell, hehe) and rice crispies. And for cakes, another person made cupcakes that were decorated. They were very nice! =)

I actually planned to bake her a cake. I've bought everything I needed for the cake and to decorate the cake, but unfortunately I left my electric at home! =( I know we had one in this apartment, but I think my friend (the birthday girl) took it a few weeks ago. We live in the same building, just different suite. And I thought of asking her for it, but then she would've figured out I was baking her something since her birthday was coming up in 2 days. So I didn't bake her a cake. =( I'm going to try next week to bake her a cake, even though it will be late, but I'm extremely busy next week.

So today after school, I slept for another 4 hours trying to catch up for last night. =p Then, I'm going to my dance class at 7 - 9 pm. Then after that, we're going to Symposium!!! =p It's a cafe, just like demetre, but I think Symposium is more exclusive and more elegant. The price is also more expensive than Caffe Demetre, and they have much more cake selections. We're going because the birthday girl (Monica) invited us there to celebrate her birthday. I even know what to get already!! LOL! I'm so excited. I'm going to get the NY-style cheesecake. I know it's plain, but since I'm learning to make cheesecake, I want to compare it to the one I make at home.

Okay, this entry actually does sound a little plain. I'm sorry people, but I just woke up. =p Well, I'm going to go shower now. I'll see if I can update more tonight or tomorrow!

Later dayz!

I guess I'm not THAT tomboy anymore? =p

GUYISH:
[ ] You like being sweaty.
[x] You love hoodies and jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[ ] It's funny when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck
[ ] You own an XBox/PS/GB.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You own a PSP.
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] You watch sports on TV
[ ] Gory movies are awesome
[ ] You only go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool.
[ ] Fire is cool.
[ ] You don't babysit.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue or silver are your favourite color(s).
[x] You don't care about your hair sometimes
[ ] You love to go crazy
[ ] Contact sports like basketball are fun too.

Now add the numbers up and multiply it by 5

"I'm 35% boyish."

GIRLY:
[x] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop all the time.
[x] You wear eyeliner sometimes.
[x] You buy different colored shirts.
[x] You have many of the same shirts in different colors
[ ] You don't like shopping at hot topic
[x] Wear the color pink
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[ ] You like hanging at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[x] Skirts are a part of your wardrobe.
[x] You take a long time doing your hair.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You hate the movie Star Wars.
[x] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 30 minutes to get dressed and put on make-up and accesories
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ]have more then 10 pairs of shoes

Add them up and multiply by 5.

"I'm 65% girly"

What most guys won't do =p

Every girl dreams that one day, she
will find a
guy that does these things for her.
Even the
smallest action can have THE BIGGEST
impact in
someone's life.

GIVE HER ONE OF YOUR T-SHIRTS TO SLEEP
IN.

LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT MESSAGES.

KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS.

TRUST HER 0VER EVERY0NE ELSE.

TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL & NOT
SEXY.

L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0
HER.

LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR.

MESS WITH HER HAIR.

JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER.

F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES.

L00K AT HER LIKE SHE'S THE 0NLY GIRL
Y0U
SEE.

TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P.

H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE
AROUND Y0UR FRIENDS.

WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL
HER Y0U L0VE HER.

LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS.

GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER.

TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK.

STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES
SICK.

WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE WITH HER

KISS HER F0REHEAD.

GIVE HER THE W0RLD.

WRITE HER LETTERS.

LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES.
(SWEATSHIRTS)

WHEN SHES SAD, HANG 0UT WITH HER.

LET HER KN0W SHE'S IMP0RTANT.

LET HER TAKE ALL THE PH0T0S 0F Y0U SHE
WANTS.

KISS HER IN THE RAIN.


AND WHEN Y0U FALL IN L0VE WITH HER,
TELL
HER.

AND WHEN Y0U D0 TELL HER. L0VE HER LIKE
Y0U NEVER
L0VED BEF0RE.




GUYS REP0ST: I'D DO THIS F0R MY GIRL

GIRLS REP0ST: WHAT M0ST GUYS W0NT D0

Snow Day #3

School is closed today for the 3rd time this semester! =) I guess we'll have a whole bunch of make up classes at the end of this term, but I'm quite satisfied. I'm supposed to be writing my Thermodynamics midterm today, but to be honest, I'm not ready. Thermodynamics is the most boring calculus-based physical chemistry course ever! And calculus is pretty much my worst math subject! =p

So, I was at the library yesterday right after my morning lecture. One hour later, it started snowing REALLY bad, more like a blizzard. The temperature dropped quite a lot I think that I had to add on an extra layer of sweater at the library. Good thing I brought an extra sweater, because in the morning it was only +1 degrees. Then, after 3 hours of studying at the library, a security announced that school is closing at 2:30 pm due to the winter storm. It turns out that it was freezing raining out there. Goodness, I had to walk all the way from the library home. Mind you that the library is located at the farthest corner of the campus from where I live =p. I had to walk home with no scarfs, no winter hat, thin snowboarding jacket, sweat pants with tights =), a long sleeve shirt and a sweater. It was so funny because before I left my house in the morning, I purposely left my winter hat at home because I thought I wouldn't need it. T____T The walk home was also pretty fierce with all those ice hitting my face, wasn't quite pleasant I'd say. The ice melted as it hit my face, so my face was soaking wet and it was VERY cold. Then, when I got home, I found that there was ICE on my scalp! LOL! I got a headache afterwards =p.

Then, I guess the half-day snow day kind of killed my study mood, so I slacked off for an hour, then I took a nap because of the headache. By the time I woke up it was already 5 pm, and I forgot I haven't prepared dinner for my brother. Then, after all was done I started studying again, but it was already 8 pm and I wasn't feeling very good! =( So I told myself let's just concentrate until midnight, then I'll decide if I should pull an all-nighter, sleep for a few hours, or whatever. When my alarm went off at midnight, I was already very tired and couldn't study. So I decided to sleep until 6 am. Butttt =p I knew last night that I wasn't going to be ready for my exam, so I secretly prayed to God to give me a chance to study more. Be it a snow day, be it anything.. =) So I woke up this morning, but there was no announcemetn yet, so I continued to study. Then at 7 am, both campuses are closed!! Hooraaayy!! =p

But let's not spoil this chance, I'm still going to study for the rest of today, but of course with less stress. =) Thannk you God! *wink*

Happy 3rd snow day everyone!

Busy.. Busy.. Sibuk.. Sibuk..

Haiz.. midterm kok gak kelar2... I'm serious, my program has a never-ending midterm... once all midterms are done, 2 weeks later final exams start! T__T And I have 2 midterms in 1 week, plus assignments. The week I don't have any midterms, I have like 3 assignments due... hikssss... =(

Oh iyaa.. bad news.. I've decided to quit from Demetre.. the job that I love so much.. I'm pretty upset that I have to quit.. Many times I tell myself that I can handle it.. I can handle it.. I try to convince myself again and again.. that I can still handle it.. just ask for less shifts... but we all know that Mike will never give me less shifts.. he gave me less days, but added more hours/day.. and my marks are living proofs that I cannot handle work and school altogether. I guess I have a hard semester.. 2 Biology, 2 Chemistry and 1 Math. I don't know what I was thinking when I decided to get that job.. hmm, paying back OSAP, shopping money.. I don't know.. but I was pretty crazy.. but yea, maybe I will be able to get the job back in the summer. If Mike decides to hate me for quitting on him =( then I guess I'll find another part-timer..

I called Mike this morning to tell him that I cannot work anymore. I told him I want to come back in the summer... but he said that he can't wait for people all the time like that... well, I can understand his position... then he tried to convince me that work does not have anything to do with school.. and I said, it does.. because I have less time to study and I get very tired.. then he said that maybe I don't eat enough or don't get enough vitamins.. then he added that he sleeps for 3 - 4 hours a day, but he is never tired. And I'm like T___T I was literally speechless.. I mean, help me out.. I don't want to quit either.. but try to understand my position too.. So, he didn't want to listen to what I have to say and he said that we will talk on Saturday when I come for work. But I did ask him to not to schedule me next week. I hope I can come in this Friday to hand in my letter of resignation.

Wow.. lol.. what a crappy entry.. but it's okay.. I just need to rant..

Later Days!

Reading Week is over...

So... reading week is over.. =( I guess a week break from school just isn't enough. But I really had a blast last week. I got to see my friends, studied (not enough =p), and the best part was that three pastors came from Surabaya to visit us here. They were great and they brought us much blessings.. MUCH! Too bad they are only staying for a week, and I only got to see them for 3 days. I will definitely miss them, especially Tante Hana. I know I'll miss her for sure, even though we haven't gotten to know each other much. I hope we will meet again.

I learned 2 new songs from them. One of them I will share today, the other I will post on another day. I forgot the title to this one though, but it's a really nice song. Here goes..

Bukan dengan kekuatanku
Ku dapat jalani hidupku
Tanpa Tuhan yang di sampingku
Ku tak mampu sendiri
Engkaulah kuatku
Yang menopangku

Chorus:
Kupadang wajahMu dan berseru
Pertolonganku datang dariMu
Peganglah tanganku jangan lepaskan
Kaulah harapan dalam hidupku


God bless all of you!

Happy Valentine's Day

Aaahh.. It's already valentine's.. again? =p Valentine's just like any other ordinary days for me. Because Valentine's days are always around midterm weeks, so the only date I'll be spending time with is my book, and I guess the library. In fact, I have a 20% quiz tomorrow, which I barely studied for because I just finished 2 assignments this morning!

Well, to everybody that I love and love me, I'd like to wish you guys a Happy Valentine's Day! My love to all of you.. <3

Love,
Farah

I met a guy...

Hmmm.. I guess that title says it all. But, it's not that we're dating or anything. In fact, we haven't even gotten to know each other yet. But we met twice, and I think we both knew we have something for each other. Well, at least I know that I think he's kinda cute.

So here goes the story. Friday 2 weeks ago, I was hostess-ing at Caffe Demetre. He came with a friend and I sat them by the window, close to the hostess-ing podium. I kinda noticed that one of the two guys kept on staring at me ever since he came in. I thought I had something in my hair or something, because he couldn't keep his eyes off me. Deep down I already thought to myself that he's kinda cute. Well, he isn't the hottest guys I've ever met, but trust me, most hot guys I know are players! Besides, I'm not really 'into' those model-type hot guys. I like to think that they're hot, yes, but I don't think I'd go for them.

So, anyway.. Even though I have a thought in my head that he is cute, I didn't go any farther than that. So far, the guys that I like are either taken, or don't like me back. So, I just kind of let go of those thoughts.

BUTTTTTTTT..................... =D LOL! I was hostess-ing again the past Friday, and guess what.. HE CAME AGAIN! This time he came alone and he brought his work with him. He brought a book and papers. He came at the worst time actually. We had a HUGE line up when he came. Well, when he was lining up, he was already staring at me. Stupid me, at first I forgot that we met the past week already. But he kinda looked familiar. So I thought, is he Indonesian? Did I meet him somewhere but don't remember? I had thoughts along those lines.

It took me a goooooddd few minutes to realize that.... he's that guy that stared at me last week. (I honestly feel like a high-schooler right now... *sigh* my love life is pathetic =p) I was going back and forth, from one corner of the store to the other, and he kept on watching me. I started to feel a little uncomfortable, but at the same time, I kinda like the attention that he was giving me. But, I tried to act as normal as possible.

Because we were so busy, the wife of my boss took over hostess-ing while I help the waitress picking up dirty plates. And she sat him at the worst table ever!!! I kinda hoped that she would sit him in the corner, somewhere.. but he was sitting right at the center of the store.. and I practically walked back and forth in front of him!

I know that he actually tried to make a conversation with me. Whenever I was walking his way, he would stare at me like crazy as if he was trying to talk to me. I looked at him and smiled at times, but I didn't want to over-do it, you know what I mean. I noticed that one time, when I was near his area, he took out a piece of white envelope and he was holding a pen. Maybe he wanted to try to get my name or contact information. But, I was so scared that I pretended I didn't look at him. But, I saw it! =( It's just that... what if he really asked those questions, am I going to just give it to him?? I mean, a stranger that I just met from nowhere! Usually when strangers asked, I'd give my msn contact, but that's it. And I usually block them from my MSN anyway. =p But, this guy.. I wouldn't block or ignore him. I don't know.. those thoughts were just rushing in my head.

I'm actually kinda upset now that I don't work on Fridays anymore since I asked my boss to cut down my shifts. What if I don't see him anymore? When I was closing the store at 2 AM, I was hoping he'd come back, you know. Because, I think that if he actually asked for my contacts when I was working, I wouldn't have given it to him. I would probably act really cold towards him, because I'm trying to hide my own emotions, and at the same time, I don't want my co-workers to find out. I'm sure some of them did, cuz he was practically watching me wherever I go. But, if he came back and asked when there was limited people around, maybe I'd give in. =p

I don't think I like "like" him, but honestly I start thinking about him.. a lot. *blushes*

Ok Farah.. no more love story.. fun time's over, now it's time to get back to books!

Later Alligator!

Dilemma..

I'm in a dilemma. I'm in a dilemma!!

My marks are dropping, should I quit my job? My boss gave me less shifts for next week, he gave me 2 days now. Actually, I really like my new schedule because he gave me Saturday morning and Sunday night. With the new schedule, I do not have to stay up late at all because Sunday night is never too crowded. I think the staying up late killed me the most.

So now another problem arises. Every Saturday my dad cannot drive me to work. It costs me $15 by cab to get there. Today is actually the third time I work Saturday morning, and the last two times I took a cab there. I didn't want to bus there because I work on Friday night and I sleep at 3 AM. I dont' want to wake up 1 hr earlier to catch the bus. On top of that, the bus comes like once by the hour on the weekends!! o.O"

So I want to work so that I can pay back my loan at least slowly! But if I work a total of 5 hours on Saturday, so I get a total of $40. So $40 minus $15 minus $taxes minus $bus (to go back home), how much do I really make?? On top of that if I bus there and home, hmmmm... that's another 2 hours on top of my work hours. I mean, I'm not trying to be picky or anything, but right now I'm really tight with my time. It's like I need the day to be twice longer!

I don't know.. should I???? I really don't want to because I LOVE my job... not to mention my boss and his wife have been very nice to me.. although sometimes they deducted money for no reason, i.e. my tips!

Anyway, I gotta get ready for work.

Ciao!

The update..

Okay.. So I haven't updated in a week or so. I was VERRRYY busy! Even now I shouldn't be writing, but I have 3 minutes/ I can't remember anymore where I left off, but yea I have a couple things in mind.

First, I was very upset and disappointed that my marks went down! See, this is where I kept on telling myself, "I knew I shouldn't have worked in the first place." I tried to get less shifts. Well, I wanted to work once a week because I do not want to quit from that place. I need the money and I plan to still work there in the summer. But my boss isn't letting me work 1 day/week. He would give me 2 days/week, but that's it. I'm still deciding on what to do. For now it should be okay because reading week is coming. If I ever needed a break from work it's gonna be this weekend, because I hvae 2 midterms and 3 assignments due next week! But I'm working 3 days this weekend! *sigh* T____T

Uh oh, 3 minutes is up. Well, I found myself a dance partner!

I'll update sometime later when I get stressed out with work!

Later!

20% Quiz..

So.. I've just finished writing my 20% Quiz. And.. it was.. HARD! Well, the questions were not too bad at all, but I feel like I wasn't satisfied at all with my answers. It seems like I didn't write enough. But, again.. I was the last few people that finished the exam, and I couldn't think of anything else to add. Well, I know for sure I wrote the wrong values for 2 things (I think it was water and Mg2+ concentration at standard free energy change), but I hope it wouldn't alter that much mark since it was only a small part of the question.

I don't know, but I'm realliiii worried right now. I feel like chasing after my prof and ask her to mark it right away, but >
Well, at least I can sleep now. Oh, sleeeeeeepp... I haven't really been getting enough sleep since the beginning of the weekend. Not even 5 hours per nite! It's crazy.

Alright, enough writing.. I gotta finish this quick lunch and head to bed. But, oh no.. I'm not supposed to sleep after I eat cuz that would interfere with my diet. Hmmm.. diet? what diet? LOL.. You know I kept telling people that I wanted to go on a diet, but yea.. I was never successful even at the first few attempts. =P

Well, hope everyone have a good afternoon!

Everything that happened on the weekend..

So many things happened this past weekend. I guess I was happy, yet upset, disappointed, frustrated, tired, and all sorts of other moods.

I left Waterloo on Friday, right after my Genetics class. I skipped thermodynamics tutorial in the afternoon because I needed to rush to Mississauga so that I can visit my old high school to request a transcript. All went well, I got a copy of my high school transcript right away. Then I went home, straight to my room, took out my biochemistry books and started nerding, all because I have a 20% worth Quiz this Tuesday (tomorrow). Then, I felt a little sleepy, so I took a nap for 1 hour so that I wouldn't be so tired coming to work at 8 pm. In my mind, I thought that I could study more on Saturday night.

So, I went to work that Friday night. Just before we closed, my friend said that, "Have you checked your schedule? You're working 11am-4pm, 8pm-closing tomorrow." I honestly thought she was joking, because we always joke around at work. So I said, "Yea right, Mike told me last week that I'd work 11am-4pm Saturday so he could train me in sandwiches." And she said, "I'm not joking.. go check it right now." So, I did.. and guess what? She was right! I was very frustrated that minute I checked my schedule. To tell you the truth, I have 2 midterms and 2 assignments due this week. I thought I would be able to at least finish studying for 1 of my midterms on the weekend, but I guess I was wrong. I had the urge to talk to my manager, but I felt bad because I just recently broke a sugar container by accident. I felt guilty as charged.

The thing is, my dad was away in Ottawa that day, so he couldn't drive me. I only had 4 hour break, and on a snowy Saturday it could take 1 hour or more to get home by bus. So, I thought to myself that I shouldn't wasting that hour and should just go study nearby. So I went to Denny's to get dinner during my break, and stayed there to study. But, well, I couldn't really study because I was tired and I regretted I didn't go home.

I haven't mentioned that I had an argument about something with my dad on Friday night on the phone. But since I come home late from work, and he had to leave early on Saturday morning, we didn't actually meet again until Sunday morning before church. I don't know why I'm upset with him. I asked him if I could do something, and he disagreed, and I couldn't accept his reasons, or maybe I couldn't accept the whole thing of why he disagreed. I thought about so many factors why I was upset with him, but I don't even know which one is right. I had this mixed feelings inside of me.

So then, yea.. this weekend I brought home my books for nothing because I barely touched them. On Sunday after church, I went to bed right away to catch up with sleep, then had to go to work that Sunday night. See, for me, church isn't just a regular 2-hour thing on Sunday. We go to church 2 hours early to set up and practice (I'm in the music team for those who didn't know). Then, after church we gotta clean up and wait until my parents drop off everybody who didn't own a car, then get an extra late lunch, then home. But I skipped lunch yesterday, so I got home at 2:30ish. See, I left at 9 am Sunday morning, and got back at 2:30 pm. Now you understand why I couldn't study at all last weekend.

So, having only had 4 hours of sleep on Sunday night, my dad drove us (my brother and I, and another friend) back to Waterloo early in the morning. When I entered the apartment, I was devastated to see that all of my plants (that I planted for my plant anatomy course) were all wilted. I was just so stressed out that I could only cry. I don't understand.. so many things happened this weekend. I'm serious I probably cried 10 times in 3 days. I don't think I've ever cried that frequently before.. or maybe I did, I don't know.

Well, I gotta go hit the books now. I just thought I should right to let this all out. And yes, I REALLYYY wish I had a sister.. you know I need that heart-to-heart talk that mostly I can't do with my mom. But it's okay, I gotta learn to be tougher and not cry every time I have problems.

Ciao for now!

I can do all things...

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" - Philippians 4:13

Have you ever felt that you're just hopeless, that there's no way you could ever reach to what you really want?

That's how I feel right now. But I know that God is by my side, and He will get me through it. He will help me achieve my dreams.. and I believe that He can make the impossible, possible! Of course, as long as you trust in Him and you do your part, God will do the rest. Amen!

Si Ira masak so'un.. =p

Hauahahaha.. ada cerita lucu nih.. I'm actually still cekikikan right now... here goes..

Hari ini tuh harusnya gua masak bakut for lunch/dinner today and lunch tomorrow. Tapi gua ngeliat ada sisa chicken broth di kulkas... trus jd takutnya kalo masak bakut ntar kebanyakan trus gak abis.. besok kan gua kudu pulang kerumah.. so yah.. akhirnya jd masak bakso kuah.. gampang kan tinggal cemplung2.. ngilernya sih bakso abang2 kayak di Jakarta gitu.. sayangnya kagak punya micinnn.. trus lg gak ada pangsit gorengg... si nyokap pas gua bilang minta dibeliin pangsit, tp dia salah.. malah dibawain-nya kuo-tieh.. kumaha atuh? =p

Lanjut.. lanjut.. gua makan bakso-nya pake mie telor gitu.. trus si ira gua tawarin mie dia kagak mau.. katanya mau-nya pake so'un.. trus ya udah.. pas dia ngerebus so'un, dia rebus kayak 2 buntelan gitu.. trus dia pikir.. "udah ah.. ntar kebanyakan.." eh gak taunya pas tuh so'un udah mateng.. jdnya ternyata dikit banget.. I gotta say that overall jdnya paling cuman cukup buat 2 suap! HAUAHAHAHAHAHAHA... langsung dah ngakak dua2an.. =p

Ya udah.. sekian dulu utk skrg.. kudu blajar nii..

daggghhhh

I'm tired..

Goodness gracious... I feel so tired this week. Actually, I find that ever since I started to work part-time, I feel so much more tired during the week, and I'm falling behind in my courses. The plan was to study hard-core during the week, then rest and work on the weekends. But, I guess it never happened this way. I don't study as much hard-core as I planned to during the week, and then I work on the weekends but cannot get enough rest. In fact, I lack sleep during the weekends due to my night shifts at work and early morning Sunday service, and an 8:30 class on Monday. *sigh*

Just FYI, usually on Saturdays and Sundays I'd be at the library nerding with my books trying to catch up on things, or at least finish all assignments that are due the following week. But since now I work, I can't do that anymore. I tend to take long naps during the day on Saturday and Sunday because I stay up late to work, which is really such a waste of time having abnormal sleeping hours like that.

I also find that, having a new job that I happen to love, I then have a new obsession. My focus is now divided between school and work. I actually look forward to going to work on the weekends. Usually, before I started working, I'd look forward to go to the library so that I can catch up with things and won't feel guilty about falling behind in school. But now, things are different.

But, I can't let my grades slip.. I can't. I'm just gonna have to kill myself at the end of this term if I let that happen. So, I've been waking up at 6 am to study before my class starts at 8:30 am. So, I go to bed at midnight, and up by 6 am. The thing is, I don't usually fall asleep right away. Sometimes it takes me 30 mins to 1 hr to actually sleep, and on the odd days it can take me hours, I know. So, on average, I probably only sleep 5.5 hrs/night on the weekdays now, and even LESS on the weekends. What am I going to do if this continues?? And I know it will be like this for the rest of the term.. unless I quit my job. =(

Anyway, let's change the topic. After my class at UW this morning, I walked to the bus stop to wait for my bus. There was 1 Asian guy standing there waiting for the bus. It was really cold, so I entered the booth to avoid the wind. Surprisingly, the Asian guy smiled at me. So, I thought to myself, "hmmm.. do I know this guy? Why is he smiling at me?" So I kind of smile back, but I did not really pay any attention as I was also listening to my iPod. But then, the guy kept looking at me as if we knew each other. So, to be polite, I took off one of my earphones and I was gonna ask him, "Do I know you?" But before I had the chance to ask, he said to me, "I met you yesterday on bus #8." I laughed because I was certain he caught the wrong person because I did not even take the bus yesterday. So, I told him so, and he tried to assure me that he really saw me and said, "Oh, maybe I saw you on Monday then. But I really SAW you." LOL, he really did emphasize the word "saw". So, I'm like.. okay... so what gitu loh? I just said to him, "yes.. must be on Monday." He then asked me if I was Chinese, if I speak any Chinese, which part of China I was from, and so on. So, I answered his questions briefly. He then asked if he could have my MSN. And, being polite or perhaps just being too nice, I didn't have the heart to say no or to give him an excuse for not giving my MSN. So, I said that if he had any paper or pen on him, I'd give him my MSN. At first, he only took out a pen. I was scared that he was gonna ask me to write it on his hand. *eeeeeeeekkkkk* Luckily, he also took out a small piece of paper. *phew*.

Alright, that is it for today. I'm gonna go back to reading Genetics.

Later days!

ps. I REALLY WANT TO GO TO WINTERLICIOUS.. ANYONE? =( don't think I have the time though..

Biochem quiz is re-scheduled!!! =D

I went to my 8:30 class this morning only to find out that the class was cancelled. At first, I was a little shocked because we were supposed have a 20% worth Quiz this Thursday. A bunch of other kids started to wonder if the prof would re-schedule the exam. About an hour later, people started to say that the prof replied to one of the students' email and said that the Quiz is still on. Everyone was very upset. I thought that, if she could reply to that student, then she could've posted an announcement on the course website, but she didn't. So, I checked back 2 hours later, and YES!! the Quiz is postponed... =)

I'm mainly happy because I pretty much have 2 assignments due tomorrow that I pretty much just got started. They're small assignments, but still.. =p

Well, it doesn't mean that I can sit around and do nothing now. After I finished those 2 assignments, I'm gonna start studying because now I have 2 exams next week and an 2 assignments due.

Alright, this is it for now! Ciao!

Hmmm.. actually ada tambahan niii.. Hari ini seru deghh di tmpt kos gue. Ada yg masak beef stew (gw sndiri), bubur kacang ijo.. trus satu lagi roommate gua masak ground beef pake bbq sauce + bumbu2 lainnya, trus dipanggang gitu loh... wangi-nya asiiiikkk, udah kayak sate bakar... trus udah gitu pas lagi manggang, nga tau knp tuh oven.. namanya jg tempat kos laa, oven-nya kan nge-rent berikut dgn appliances2 dan furniture2 lainnya.. HAUAHAhahaha.HA.. trus kok berasap banyak bgt... tuh fire alarm udah 10 kali bunyi kali.. trus bunyi-nya tuh tiap 2 menit gitu.. HAUAHAHAHA.. trus semua jendela kamar jg udah dibuka.. trus, kan kamar gua itu the only room yg ada balcony-nya.. jd jendela-nya segede pintu balcony gitu loh.. eh pas gua buka.. alarmnya pas mo bunyi.. tp langsung mati lagi.. . saking dinginnya kali angin dr luar ^^ it's soo funny.. tp overall, seru jg loh rame2 masak begitu.. ^^ ya udah segitu deh.. =p

Happy! ^^

It's 2:54 am, and I just got back from work about 15 minutes ago. I gotta say I love my new job. It's really fun, you know, making all those fancy drinks, decorating plates with variety of sauces... and soon, they will train me in sandwiches and pizza. They actually make their sandwiches and pizza from scratch, and I gotta say that those are not regular sandwiches. They taste heavenly! I get to learn to make them. They also make pizza from scratch, so I get to make them too! I'm so happy! ^-^ Soon after that, maybe if I work longer, they'll train me in soup too. Actually, the chef will be training me! =p It'd be kinda cool if I get to be the chef assistant or something like that! Ooooohh, sooo excited!

Aside from that, my dad doesn't really like it when he heard how much I enjoy this job. He wants me to focus on getting a job in the health or science area, because I'll be graduating soon. Well, yes of course I will get another job, but I'm planning to keep this job. I can keep it as a part time and get another full time job! =) *I hope*

And today, I finally went to the Chinese store with my mom and get those meats I needed. I never had time on the weekends to go there since I work now, and getting meats at the regular grocery stores are just so much more expensive. Besides, the Chinese store has a much more complete collection on types of meats, etc. So, yea! It's been so long that I told my brother I was gonna make "bakut". I don't know what you'd call that in English, but bakut is one of my favourite soup. It's also simple to make, which makes me happy! Haha =p So yea, today I finally bought pork ribs to make bakut!!!! I also bought beef shanks (sengkel) to make beef stew that I've been wanting to make, but have been delayed since stewing beef at Price Chopper can cost me $10/kg! So yea, my brother and I are having a feast this week! Too bad I have a midterm and ALL assignments due, hopefully I'll be able to cook all that.

Anyway, I'm only writing this blog this late because I cannot go to sleep right away when I just got back from work. I need to let my body cool down to the rest level, then go to 'pulau kapuk'. =p

Alright, I think I'm gonna go now. Don't forget to go to church tomorrow people. And this especially for u, my best friend.. u know who u are! You better go! =p

Selamat malam dunia!

A message for my friend...

I don't know if you read my blog. I think I gave you a link to this blog before, but I don't think you ever come here. Not that I expect you to visit, but I just have a little message for you.

I know that you're probably going through a very tough time right now. I can see that you're in a dilemma, confused of what to do. You want to follow what your heart wants, what your heart needs.. but at the same time, you're afraid of what might happen, the consequences.

Often you come to me for comfort. You'd call me whenever you feel like crying or when you feel like being lost. However, you never find the answers or advices that you want from me. When you come to me to talk about things, I seem to never have the perfect answer that you're looking for.

You know that I've never been in the same situation as you before. I have no certain experience that can back up what I'm gonna say to you. But, all I know is that.. whenever I have problems and I don't know what to do or where to go, I go and find God. I talk to God, you know, like a real conversation. I pray to God, and tell Him my problems... and really I can feel that I find comfort when I do this. So, all those times when you call me or when you come to my room crying, I really want to tell you that you should pray. I have no other answers because I've done this all my life. I have no past experience where God was not involved in my problems, because I always come to Him the second those problems come. This is also what my parents taught me since I was little. So, really.. I have no other answer for you.. but pray..

I was listening to this song last night, and the lyrics have put this burden in my heart to tell you. But, I don't know how to tell you. You seem to have a different belief about God. You seem to have your own belief about things. You take many different things, here and there, and you just take what makes sense to you. I hope that someday (soon), I can tell you this good news.

Anyway, below is the lyric to the song.

One Thing I Know
by Selah

Something in your eyes I see
reminds me of what used to be
when I was uncertain of the truth.
Sleepless nights that turn to days;
alone inside an endless maze;
counting on someone to see me through.

If there's one thing I know,
you are never left alone
'cause you can always call on Jesus's name.
If there's one thing I pray,
it's Jesus helps you find a way
to make a change and listen to your heart.
God will take away your pain
if you choose to let it go.
If there's one thing I know.

How can I convince your heart?
His light can find you in the dark
and only He can make your blind eye see.
For if we speak of lost things found,
of lives that have been turned around;
Then tell me who knows better, child, than me?

I would never stake my life on any lesser things
than the cross of Christ where He gave His life to end my suffering.

OMG... another one...

Gua tuh orangnya emang mungkin rada kebawelan kali yaaa... But really, I can get comfortable with people really easily. Apakah itu yang namanya 'naive' or 'polos'? Or am I just simply dumb? If I really think about it, I think I trust other people too easily. Friends that I just met, I just assume that they're nice people and start talking and talking, chatting and chatting away. Ato emang gua terlalu cerewet! o.O"

So let's get to the story. Remember that last month I just got a new job at Demetre. Okay.. so ceritanya ada satu cowo, kerjanya bareng si Putri, naksir ma gua. Trus kan yah gua mah biasa2 aja ma dia. Trus dia itu kalo gua dateng tapi kagak say hi ke dia, dia tuh bete gitu loh. Until, I realized that he's only 19 years old. Yah gak compatible banget laa ma gua, masa gua 2 taon lebih tua gitu loh. So, jadi kayaknya abis gitu dia nyadar kalo gua kagak mao, so he backed off.

Trus, ada 1 cowo lagi. Dia ini udah punya pacar, dan gua kenal pacarnya karena sama2 kerja di Demetre. Trus, after I work there for 2 weeks, si cewe-nya tuh dapet kerjaan lagi jadi dia quit. Trus, baru minggu kemaren ini si cowo ini juga quit, krn dia jg dapet kerjaan yg lebih baik gitu loh. Trus kan kita pada tuker2an msn gitu. Actually, dia yang add gua di msn karena gua biasanya emang gak gitu care about msn, KECUALI gua naksir ma orangnya.. HAHAHA.. make sense donggg...

Nah trus nih, kita lumayan sering laa ngobrol di msn gitu. We can talk about many things, from school, work, boys/girls, etc. Trus dia mulai2 bilang ke gua kalo menurut dia, gua itu orangnya cute, a sweet girl, have a charming smile, endearing girl, a hot lil' body, etc. Tadinya gua gak ngerasa kalo nih orang ada maksud apa2 gitu. Wong gua orang-nya kepolosan kali yaa, gak tau deh. Lagian gua pikir dia udah punya pacar, dan gua kenal lagi!!!!

Lalu, kemaren ini kita ada ngobrol lagii. Trus kan pas ngobrol itu gua baru pulang pergi berenang. Trus akhirnya kita ada conversation about working out, etc dan gua bilang yah emang gua suka work out regularly, biasanya aerobics ato swimming gitu. Akhir2nya tuh jd ngomongin ttg gua trying to lose weight. Trus yah dia bilang kalo menurut dia gua itu kagak gendut ama sekali, blah blah.. Trus kan karena udah malem, jd gua bilang kalo gua dah mo tidur. Nah sebelon gua pergi offline itu dia comment lagi, "Gua tetap berpikir kalo eloe itu gak gendut, kaya yg dah gua bilang... quite hot even.. eloe membuat menyesal kalo gua dah quit dr tempat kerja itu.. semoga kita bisa ketemu lagi SOON!" Nah looo! (btw, itu quote-nya gua translate ke indo, sapa tau dia baca gitu...) Gua langsung mikir yah aneh2 laaa... Tell me if he isn't flirting with me! Menurut gua sih itu udah flirting, considering the fact that kita itu cuman co-worker that lately (abt 1 week) have been chatting.

Trus jd gua musti gmn dong? Gua sih kagak tertarik bgt deee ma orangnya. Bukan tipe gua, lagian suka ngomong kotor. Tapi memang orangnya tuh sopan abissss. Tapi mana tahan ngomong kotornya!

Yah anyway, post ini jd di bhs. Indo gitu. Abis gua takut dia baca sih. Orang sini tuh jago kayak stalk gitu loh, tiba2 bisaaja gitu ketemu website org.

Ya udah deh, segini dulu. I have to go cook nih ntar ade gua kagak ada makanan. Hari ini mau bikin fuyunghai-nya a la Ci Vania! =) *makasih lo resepnya ^^*

Later days!

Hmmm.. today...

Nothing much really happened today. Wednesdays are my longest day of the week. I had classes since morning until late afternoon. I then continued to read my plants textbook in the quiet study room because I'm falling behind in the course. It's a distance education course. OMG, it's so boring. I hate it, because we actually have no lectures, meaning I have to learn the stuff on my own. Arrgghhh...

Hmm.. I also went swimming today! ^^ The water was so great. I got the chance to watch a swim instructor teaching a little kid, and I got a few pointers for myself. I quit swimming lesson since I was still back in Indo. I wish I had continued it here though, but I guess it was too expensive anyway. But, I still love swimming no matter what! =)

Alright, I really don't know what else to say. I'm gonna go to sleep because I'm very tired.

Later days!

Some random thoughts...

I haven't blogged in a while. Why? I don't know why.. =p I guess I've just been lazy.

Love is patient and kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.
Love does not demand its own way.
Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged.
It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful,
and endures through every circumstance.
-1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (New Living Translation)

So, what is love? I don't think I've ever loved anybody more than I loved God, my parents, my two brothers, my best friends, and any other friends I have. The love that I express to these people closely resembles the definition of "love" in 1 Corinthinas 13. But what about loving 'the significant other'? Is it the same love? If it is, then why is it so complicated? Why is that when we followed our hearts, we ended up regretting or getting hurt in the end? Why? I thought love was.. everything.

What is loneliness? Why do we often feel lonely? Is it because we are home alone? Is it because we have no friends or no one to talk to? Or is it because we THINK we have no friends or nobody to talk to?

I have to admit that I feel lonely at times. Sometimes I envy those girls that are 'in a relationship' because at times I think that they have everything. They have someone to talk to, to listen to, to play with, to go out with. But, the thing is.. the more I think that I'm lonely, the more I FEEL that I'm lonely. In fact, I know very well that I am NOT lonely. As I've mentioned above, I have two lovely parents, two lovely brothers, two best friends, an older brother to look up to, a kazillion of friends... and not forgetting to mention GOD. So, I am not lonely. When I'm in my room alone thinking that I'm lonely, in fact I am not. I just think I am. I sink myself really deep in that thought that my heart finally believe that I am lonely.

Money can't buy everything. I'm sure many of you are well aware of that. Money can buy lots of things that everybody wish they have. You think that if you have a lot of money and all those things that you want to buy, you have conquered the world. You'll be the happiest king and queen in the whole wide world. But no! Money can't buy friends (maybe yes, but not true friends), money can't buy happiness, money can't buy peace, and there are many other things that money can't buy.

Sometimes people plan way beyond their heads and think that "I feel like crap. I feel so poor living in this very small and economy-sized room and crappy-looking apartment. But imagine if I have a house. I get to decorate it the way I want, I get to make my own garden, etc etc." But think about it, once you get the house you will think differently. Yes, you will be happy. You probably won't feel like crap for the first few weeks. But what happens after? You'll feel like crap again because you're living alone in a big house! You'll get lonely and depressed. On top of that, there might be problems after problems coming at you. For example, since now you are an owner, you are responsible for fixing things on your expense. Then, you'll start complaining again.

So, in conclusion, you will never be satisfied with anything. Even if you think that you'll be satisfied because of one thing, that satisfication usually don't last very long.

Hmm, what else are in my mind at this moment? I don't know. I told you in the beginning that this entry is going to be very random. Well, thanks for reading though. Although, don't really think about what I write today, because I'm just rambling. I'm not exactly bored, but I just have so much things in mind that I think I need to write, hehe. Thanks for reading anyways.